I WAS SITTING AT MY DESK... AROUND 6:30 AM... COFFEE ON MY DESK, SLEEPING BABY, STARTED WORK...
AND THEN... MY NEIGHBOR, LISA, WALKED DOWN THE HILL IN FRONT OF ME, JUST GETTING BACK FROM HER EARLY MORNING RUN. A COUPLE MINUTES LATER, HER HUSBAND, CHRIS, SET OUT ON HIS RUN.
WHAT WAS I DOING?
ITS LIGHT OUT. IM MOTIVATED. ALL I COULD THINK WAS "THIS IS HOW TRIATHLETES DO IT."
ITS ALL ABOUT DEMANDING TIME FOR YOURSELF. KEYWORD: DEMANDING. MY YOGA INSTRUCTOR SAYS IT EVERY CLASS: "THANK YOU FOR COMING AND DEVOTING THIS HOUR TO YOURSELF"... MY TIME. I CAN CHOSE TO DO WHATEVER WITH MY "ME TIME" AND I REALLY WANT TO DIVE IN TO BE ACTIVE FOR ME.
I GET TOO WRAPPED UP IN LIFE, AND BY THE TIME I GET HOME IM TOO TIRED OR HAVE NO MOTIVATION.
MAYBE I SHOULD WORKOUT IN THE MORNINGS? MY NEW PLAN, EVEN IF ITS JUST A COUPLE DAYS A WEEK. ITD BE AN AWESOME WAY TO START THE DAY, AND GET IT OVER WITH. NO EXCUSES. I HAVE JOSH IN MY BED TO KICK ME OUT WHEN THE ALARM HITS... WHATS MY EXCUSE? 'IM TIRED...?' NO FLYIN THIS TIME, SUCKER.
THIS WEEK I WAS INSPIRED BY CHRIS AND LISA (THEY ARE HARDCORE. TWO KIDS. AND HAVE BOTH COMPLETE IRONMANS... YES, IRONMANS!). I WANT TO UP THE ANTY (SP?). SO I DID. IN MY OWN WAY. I WORKED OUT 5 TIMES THIS WEEK.
MONDAY: YOGA
TUESDAY: RUN 2 MILES WITH CAE
WEDNESDAY: BIKE 12 MILES, SWIM 1/2 MI
THURSDAY: YOGA
FRIDAY: RUN 5 MILES (SEE WHAT I CAN DO WITH NO STROLLER?! HAHA)
WEDNESDAY WAS AWESOME. IT MAKES ME REALLY WANT TO JUST JUMP IN AND DO A SPRINT TRIATHLON (750m SWIM, 20km BIKE, 5k RUN). TOTALLY DO ABLE. THEN I WANT TO WORK UP TO A BIGGER AND BIGGER ONE. MUA HA HA.
FRIDAY WAS ALSO HUGEEE FOR ME! 5 MILES?! I HAVENT DONE THAT IN MONTHS. MY KNEES HAVE REALLY BEEN HURTING LATELY, SO I WAS SOOOO EXCITED TO COME HOME AND BRAG! THEN I WENT FOR THE ICE PACK. (THANKFULLY I DONT REALLY HURT TODAY... A GOOD SIGN INDEED!) I WANT TO DO A COUPLE OF 5 MILE RUNS DURING THE WEEK, AND WORK UP TO AN 8-10 MILE RUN ON THE WEEKENDS AS MY LONG RUN.
THATS MY GOAL. ALONG WITH HOPEFULLY SAVING FOR A ROAD BIKE, SO I CAN GET HARDCORE WITH THAT WITHOUT KILLING MY KNEES.
IM SO EXCITED THIS WEEK! NEXT WEEK I WANT TO KILL IT AND DO THE SAME, BUT INCORPORATE MORNING WORKOUTS... HOPEFULLY DO MY STRENGTH TRAINING THEN. I NEED TO START LOOKING UP SOME LEG WORKOUTS SO I CAN STRENGTHEN MY QUAD MUSCLES SO MY KNEES CAN START LOVING ME AGAIN (AND REWARD ME WITH LONG RUNS!). IM ALMOST TEMPTED TO USE A PERSONAL TRAINER, EVEN IF ITS ONLY A COUPLE OF WORKOUTS. IM PRETTY GOOD AT PUSHING MYSELF (I ACTUALLY PREFER TO WORKOUT ALONE), SO I JUST NEED SOME DIRECTION.
IN OTHER NEWS, MY SUSAN G KOMEN 5K WALK WENT AWESOME! IT WAS SO NICE TO BE OUT THERE WITH MY MOM! I THINK SHE WAS IN UTTER SHOCK ABOUT HOW MANY PEOPLE WERE THERE. IT WAS AWESOME. SHE EVEN WANTS TO DO IT NEXT YEAR! YAY MOMMY!
I HAVE ANOTHER 5K ON THANKSGIVING MORNING WITH DARCY. WE DID IT LAST YEAR, AND DECIDED IT HAD TO BECOME TRADITION. THIS YEAR WE ARE DRESSING UP... TURKEY BEANIES AND TUTUS! HAHA IT SHOULD BE AWESOME. IM EXCITED. THIS TIME IM RUNNING IT, AND IM PRETTY EXCITED ;D
I HOPE EVERYONE HAD A GREAT WEEK! DREAM BIG!
FOOD FOR THOUGHT: WHAT DO YOU DO WITH YOUR "ME TIME'? WHAT DO YOU DEMAND OF YOURSELF? WHAT DO YOU DEMAND OF YOUR TIME? ARE YOU REALLY PUSHING YOURSELF?
OXOX
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
[I MIGHT TRI IT]
SOOOO LONG TIME NO TALK! SORRY, LIFE HAS BEEN SUPER BUSY. STUFF WITH RYAN, MOVING, HALLOWEEN, MOVING... CLEANING.... PACKING... UNPACKING... YOU GET THE IDEA.
I ACTUALLY DIDN'T GO TO THE GYM VERY MUCH LAST WEEK, SO IM MAKING UP FOR IT THIS WEEK! I NEED TO GET SERIOUSSSSSSS ABOUT MY DIET AND EXERCISE.
LATELY IVE BEEN HAVING A HANKERING TO TRY A TRIATHLON... LETS NOT GET TOO CRAZY... IM TALKING ABOUT A HALF TRIATHLON. IN THE FAR FUTURE... WHICH MEANS I WANT TO START TRAINING YESTERDAY. AT THE GYM IVE BEEN DOING WHAT I CALL 'MINI TRIATHLONS' CONSISTING OF A 2 MILE RUN, 6 MILE BIKE, AND A 1/2 MILE SWIM... IN THAT ORDER... OBVIOUSLY I DO IT IN THE WRONG ORDER.... (SUPPOSE TO SWIM, BIKE, RUN)... BUT I DONT WANT TO SWIM, SHOWER, THEN DO THE REST OF MY WORKOUT INSIDE WITH WET HAIR... CALL ME CRAZY. MAYBE IF I WAS TRAINING OUTSIDE.... HAHA. ALRIGHTY...
SO I WANT TO WORK UP TO A HALF TRIATHLON BEFORE I DIE (WHICH IS 1.2MI SWIM, 56MI BIKE, AND 13.1MI RUN) BUT I FIGURED THAT BEFORE I START BECOMING INSANE, I BETTER START WITH A SPRINT (.47MI SWIM, 12.4MI BIKE, AND A 3.1MI RUN) THEN MOVE TO AN OLYMPIC DISTANCE (.93MI SWIM, 24.8MI BIKE, AND A 6.2MI RUN)....
IM STARTING TO GET REALLY EXCITED. IVE BEEN LOVING MY NEW GYM TIME. I NEED TO START A GOOD SCHEDULE THOUGH... KEEP MY YOGA AND STRENGTH TRAINING GOING WHILE DOING ALL THAT FUN CARDIO. THIS TIME IM DOING THINGS RIGHT BY HAVING A REALLY GOOD WELL ROUNDED WORKOUT.
I JUST NEED TO GET BRAVE ENOUGH TO GO OUT AND DO SOME OCEAN WATER SWIMS. WHICH IS KINDA CRAZY FOR ME TO THINK ABOUT. WEIRD TO THINK ABOUT WAVES... CURRENT... FREEZING WATER... AND NOT TO MENTION THERE WAS A SHARK SIGHTING AT BEACONS (ABOUT 200YRDS FROM MY FRONT DOOR).
I NEED A BUDDY. SOMEONE ON MY LEVEL. I KNOW JOSH WOULD DO IT... BUT HE'S ALSO 6'2" AND RUNS MUCH FASTER, IS AN INSANE BIKER, AND I KNOW BECAUSE HE'S SO LONG AND LEAN WOULD KILL IT IN SWIMMING.
... ALRIGHTY WELL THAT WAS FUN.
HOPEFULLY I CAN START POSTING MORE FREQUENTLY NOW THAT THINGS HAVE CALMED DOWN A BIT...
OXOX
J
I ACTUALLY DIDN'T GO TO THE GYM VERY MUCH LAST WEEK, SO IM MAKING UP FOR IT THIS WEEK! I NEED TO GET SERIOUSSSSSSS ABOUT MY DIET AND EXERCISE.
LATELY IVE BEEN HAVING A HANKERING TO TRY A TRIATHLON... LETS NOT GET TOO CRAZY... IM TALKING ABOUT A HALF TRIATHLON. IN THE FAR FUTURE... WHICH MEANS I WANT TO START TRAINING YESTERDAY. AT THE GYM IVE BEEN DOING WHAT I CALL 'MINI TRIATHLONS' CONSISTING OF A 2 MILE RUN, 6 MILE BIKE, AND A 1/2 MILE SWIM... IN THAT ORDER... OBVIOUSLY I DO IT IN THE WRONG ORDER.... (SUPPOSE TO SWIM, BIKE, RUN)... BUT I DONT WANT TO SWIM, SHOWER, THEN DO THE REST OF MY WORKOUT INSIDE WITH WET HAIR... CALL ME CRAZY. MAYBE IF I WAS TRAINING OUTSIDE.... HAHA. ALRIGHTY...
SO I WANT TO WORK UP TO A HALF TRIATHLON BEFORE I DIE (WHICH IS 1.2MI SWIM, 56MI BIKE, AND 13.1MI RUN) BUT I FIGURED THAT BEFORE I START BECOMING INSANE, I BETTER START WITH A SPRINT (.47MI SWIM, 12.4MI BIKE, AND A 3.1MI RUN) THEN MOVE TO AN OLYMPIC DISTANCE (.93MI SWIM, 24.8MI BIKE, AND A 6.2MI RUN)....
IM STARTING TO GET REALLY EXCITED. IVE BEEN LOVING MY NEW GYM TIME. I NEED TO START A GOOD SCHEDULE THOUGH... KEEP MY YOGA AND STRENGTH TRAINING GOING WHILE DOING ALL THAT FUN CARDIO. THIS TIME IM DOING THINGS RIGHT BY HAVING A REALLY GOOD WELL ROUNDED WORKOUT.
I JUST NEED TO GET BRAVE ENOUGH TO GO OUT AND DO SOME OCEAN WATER SWIMS. WHICH IS KINDA CRAZY FOR ME TO THINK ABOUT. WEIRD TO THINK ABOUT WAVES... CURRENT... FREEZING WATER... AND NOT TO MENTION THERE WAS A SHARK SIGHTING AT BEACONS (ABOUT 200YRDS FROM MY FRONT DOOR).
I NEED A BUDDY. SOMEONE ON MY LEVEL. I KNOW JOSH WOULD DO IT... BUT HE'S ALSO 6'2" AND RUNS MUCH FASTER, IS AN INSANE BIKER, AND I KNOW BECAUSE HE'S SO LONG AND LEAN WOULD KILL IT IN SWIMMING.
... ALRIGHTY WELL THAT WAS FUN.
HOPEFULLY I CAN START POSTING MORE FREQUENTLY NOW THAT THINGS HAVE CALMED DOWN A BIT...
OXOX
J
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
[SPITE ME OL MIGHTY SPITER!]
ALRIGHTY.... SOAP OPERA CONTINUES....
LAST SATURDAY, RYAN TOOK CAE FOR THE DAY. HE AGREED ON NO OVERNIGHTS FOR AWHILE FOR OBVIOUS REASONS, EVEN THOUGH HE'S BEEN 'SOBER.'
AROUND 5PM RYAN TEXTS ME 'DONT BOTHER COMING TO GET CAELUM, IM TAKING HIM FOR THE NIGHT' ... MY RESPONSE? 'NO WAY.'
SO AT 7:30PM, JOSH AND I HEADED TO OCEANSIDE TO GRAB CAELUM. WE AGREED TO STAY CALM, AND IF HE DOESN'T COMPLY WE WILL JUST CALL THE POLICE AND LET THEM SORT THINGS OUT.
OF COURSE WE GET THERE AND RYAN DOESN'T OPEN THE DOOR, AND TELLS US TO GO AHEAD AND CALL THE COPS. SO WE DID. THEY SHOWED UP, AND TOLD US THAT THERE WAS NOTHING THEY COULD DO BECAUSE WE DONT HAVE A VISITATION AGREEMENT ON PAPER.
IVE NEVER FELT SO HELPLESS IN MY LIFE. I CRIED. THERE WAS NOTHINGGGG THEY COULD DO?!
SO JOSH BEING ALL SNEAKY DECIDED TO GO AHEAD AND SERVE RYAN WITH THE COURT PAPERS FROM A WEEK OR SO AGO, AND TRY TO EGG HIM ON TO THREATEN HIM OR SOMETHING SO WE COULD GET THE COPS BACK....
THIS WORKED.... RYAN CAME TO THE DOOR WITH A SPEARGUN. YES, A SPEARGUN. A BIGGG ONE. MY LIFE HAS TURNED INTO A JERRY SPRINGER EPISODE APPARENTLY. SO I CALLED THE COPS AGAIN, AND THEY HADNT LEFT, SO I RAN DOWNSTAIRS AND GOT THEM IN THE NICK OF TIME.
THEY CAME UPSTAIRS AND HANDCUFFED RYAN, ASKED HIM IF HED THREATENED JOSH... HE HAD THE AUDACITY TO SAY 'NO' ... EVEN THOUGH THE SPEARGUN WAS IN THE DOORWAY.... THE COPS ALSO ASKED IF HE'D BEEN DRINKING... HE SAID YES (!!!!! WTF!). THEY LET ME IN TO GO TO CAELUM WHO WAS HANGING OUT IN HIS PACK N PLAY. WHILE I WAS WITH CAE, THE COPS ASKED JOSH IF HE'D LIKE TO PRESS CHARGES, AND HE SAID NO, ONLY IF WE COULD TAKE CAELUM HOME. RYAN AGREED.
WHAT A NIGHT. SO HAPPY TO HAVE CAE HOME WITH ME. I COULDN'T BELIEVE WHAT HAD HAPPENED. JOSH IS SO BRAVE AND AMAZING. DONT KNOW WHAT ID DO WITHOUT HIM.
NOW IM JUST HEARTBROKEN... ALL I CAN DO IS THROW UP MY ARMS.... RYAN HAS LEFT ME ABSOLUTELY ANY CHOICES.... WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO? I DONT TRUST HIM, I DONT TRUST HIM WITH CAE... HE NEEDS HELP. OBVIOUSLY HE STILL WANTS TO SEE CAE... BUT I FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO RESORT TO SUPERVISED VISITS... I NEED SOMETHING ON PAPER. IM SO STRESSED.
I LOVE JOSH. I LOVE MY MOM. I LOVE MY FRIENDS. THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR YOUR SUPPORT! WE WILL GET THROUGH THIS SOMEHOW.
[LATER THAT WEEKEND...]
PUMPKIN PATCH...
MY AWESOME FRIEND, LIZ, COMES INTO TOWN THIS WEEKEND, WE ARE SO EXCITED! THEN NEXT FRIDAY I GET TO GO SEE CHRIS YOUNG AND JASON ALDEAN WITH MY PMB GIRLS... SOOOO EXCITED! THEN THAT NEXT DAY, I GET TO MOVE IN WITH JOSH! SO EXCITED!
I HAVE SOOOOOO MUCH TO DO. YIKESSSSS.
WISH ME LUCK!
LAST SATURDAY, RYAN TOOK CAE FOR THE DAY. HE AGREED ON NO OVERNIGHTS FOR AWHILE FOR OBVIOUS REASONS, EVEN THOUGH HE'S BEEN 'SOBER.'
AROUND 5PM RYAN TEXTS ME 'DONT BOTHER COMING TO GET CAELUM, IM TAKING HIM FOR THE NIGHT' ... MY RESPONSE? 'NO WAY.'
SO AT 7:30PM, JOSH AND I HEADED TO OCEANSIDE TO GRAB CAELUM. WE AGREED TO STAY CALM, AND IF HE DOESN'T COMPLY WE WILL JUST CALL THE POLICE AND LET THEM SORT THINGS OUT.
OF COURSE WE GET THERE AND RYAN DOESN'T OPEN THE DOOR, AND TELLS US TO GO AHEAD AND CALL THE COPS. SO WE DID. THEY SHOWED UP, AND TOLD US THAT THERE WAS NOTHING THEY COULD DO BECAUSE WE DONT HAVE A VISITATION AGREEMENT ON PAPER.
IVE NEVER FELT SO HELPLESS IN MY LIFE. I CRIED. THERE WAS NOTHINGGGG THEY COULD DO?!
SO JOSH BEING ALL SNEAKY DECIDED TO GO AHEAD AND SERVE RYAN WITH THE COURT PAPERS FROM A WEEK OR SO AGO, AND TRY TO EGG HIM ON TO THREATEN HIM OR SOMETHING SO WE COULD GET THE COPS BACK....
THIS WORKED.... RYAN CAME TO THE DOOR WITH A SPEARGUN. YES, A SPEARGUN. A BIGGG ONE. MY LIFE HAS TURNED INTO A JERRY SPRINGER EPISODE APPARENTLY. SO I CALLED THE COPS AGAIN, AND THEY HADNT LEFT, SO I RAN DOWNSTAIRS AND GOT THEM IN THE NICK OF TIME.
THEY CAME UPSTAIRS AND HANDCUFFED RYAN, ASKED HIM IF HED THREATENED JOSH... HE HAD THE AUDACITY TO SAY 'NO' ... EVEN THOUGH THE SPEARGUN WAS IN THE DOORWAY.... THE COPS ALSO ASKED IF HE'D BEEN DRINKING... HE SAID YES (!!!!! WTF!). THEY LET ME IN TO GO TO CAELUM WHO WAS HANGING OUT IN HIS PACK N PLAY. WHILE I WAS WITH CAE, THE COPS ASKED JOSH IF HE'D LIKE TO PRESS CHARGES, AND HE SAID NO, ONLY IF WE COULD TAKE CAELUM HOME. RYAN AGREED.
WHAT A NIGHT. SO HAPPY TO HAVE CAE HOME WITH ME. I COULDN'T BELIEVE WHAT HAD HAPPENED. JOSH IS SO BRAVE AND AMAZING. DONT KNOW WHAT ID DO WITHOUT HIM.
NOW IM JUST HEARTBROKEN... ALL I CAN DO IS THROW UP MY ARMS.... RYAN HAS LEFT ME ABSOLUTELY ANY CHOICES.... WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO? I DONT TRUST HIM, I DONT TRUST HIM WITH CAE... HE NEEDS HELP. OBVIOUSLY HE STILL WANTS TO SEE CAE... BUT I FEEL LIKE I HAVE TO RESORT TO SUPERVISED VISITS... I NEED SOMETHING ON PAPER. IM SO STRESSED.
I LOVE JOSH. I LOVE MY MOM. I LOVE MY FRIENDS. THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR YOUR SUPPORT! WE WILL GET THROUGH THIS SOMEHOW.
[LATER THAT WEEKEND...]
PUMPKIN PATCH...
MY AWESOME FRIEND, LIZ, COMES INTO TOWN THIS WEEKEND, WE ARE SO EXCITED! THEN NEXT FRIDAY I GET TO GO SEE CHRIS YOUNG AND JASON ALDEAN WITH MY PMB GIRLS... SOOOO EXCITED! THEN THAT NEXT DAY, I GET TO MOVE IN WITH JOSH! SO EXCITED!
I HAVE SOOOOOO MUCH TO DO. YIKESSSSS.
WISH ME LUCK!
Sunday, October 9, 2011
[INCREDIBLE HULK?]
WHAT DOESN'T KILL YOU, MAKES YOU STRONGER. I HOPE BY THE END OF THIS, I AM MRS. INCREDIBLE HULK. I MIGHT LOOK GOOD IN GREEN.... MUA HA HA.
SO HERES THE DEAL...
[IN MY LIFE....]
LAST WEEKEND WAS RYAN'S WEEKEND WITH CAE... AND SATURDAY NIGHT (OCT 1ST) AROUND 7:30 I GOT TWO CALLS FROM A NUMBER I DIDN'T KNOW, SO I DIDN'T ANSWER IT, BUT A LITTLE WHILE AFTER I CHECKED MY VOICEMAIL... THE MESSAGE IS FROM SOME GIRL AND IT WENT A LITTLE LIKE THIS...
"HI JENNIFER, MY NAME IS REBECCA SMITH, AND YOU DONT KNOW BE BUT I KNOW RYAN AND HE WAS COMING UP TO VISIT ME TODAY IN BIG BEAR, AND GOT PULLED OVER. I HAVE YOUR SON. RYAN WAS STOPPED FOR SPEEDING, AND WHEN ASKED IF HE HAD BEEN DRINKING HE SAID 'I DRANK LAST NIGHT, BUT NOT TODAY'... WELLLLL, HE STILL HAD A BLOOD-ALCOHOL LEVEL HIGH ENOUGH TO BRING HIM TO JAIL. AND HE CALLED ME TO PICK UP CAELUM SO HE WOULDN'T GO TO C.P.S. HE IS FINE, BUT PLEASE GIVE ME A CALL BACK."
WTF?!?!?! I CALLED HER RIGHT BACK AND SHE SAID THAT RYAN GOT PULLED OVER AT 2 IN THE AFTERNOON, AND THAT HE SAID HE SHOULD BE OUT IN 5 HRS AND THAT SHE'D CALL THE SHERIFF TO GET AN UPDATE.
I COULDN'T BREATHE! I WAS SHAKING! I CAME IN AND TOLD JOSH AND ALMOST BROKE DOWN. SHE CALLED ME BACK AND SAID THAT RYAN WASNT GOING TO GET OUT UNTIL ABOUT 10AM SUNDAY MORNING, AND AFTER THAT WHO KNEW HOW LONG ITD TAKE TO GET HIS TRUCK OUT OF IMPOUND.... ARE YOU EFFING SERIOUS?! SO I TOLD HER ID BE UP IN 3 HRS. SHE ASKED IF I WAS SURE, THAT EVERYTHING REALLY WAS OK, AND OF COURSE I RESPONDED THAT THERE WAS NO WAY I WAS SLEEPING TONIGHT ANYWAYS SO IM ON MY WAY.
JOSH IS AMAZING AND DROVE BOTH WAYS UP TO THE TOP OF BIG BEAR AND BACK TO GET CAELUM (MIND YOU HE HAD ALREADY BEEN TO LA THAT DAY AND OUT TO VALLEY CENTER). BEST REUNION EVER. I NEVER KNEW WAS RELIEF WAS UNTIL I HAD THAT BOY IN MY ARMS! I COULDN'T STOP LOOKING AT HIM IN THE BACK OF MY CAR.
FIRST THING MONDAY I WENT TO COURT AND OF COURSE DIDN'T GET THERE EARLY ENOUGH, AND THEY COULDN'T HELP ME WITH A DAMN THING. OUR SYSTEM SUCKS. NOT EVEN EMERGENCY CUSTODY OR ANYTHING. SUCH BS. I WENT STRAIGHT TO CAES DAYCARE AND PICKED HIM UP 3 HRS EARLY BECAUSE I WAS TERRIFIED THAT RYAN MIGHT GO AND PICK HIM UP. I INFORMED THE DAYCARE OF EVERYTHING, AND THEY SAID LEGALLY THEY COULDNT STOP HIM, BUT THEY COULD CALL ME AND STALL. I WAS TOO PARANOID LOL.
SOOOO I WENT BACK TO COURT TUESDAY AT 6:30AM, RHIANA WAS AMAZING AND CAME OVER TO WATCH CAE AT 6AM (AND WE BOTH KNOW 6AM IS NOT CHILE TIME LOL). 7 HOURS LATER, I GOT A MEDIATION DATE FOR DECEMBER FOR FULL CUSTODY AND VISITATION... SAME SCHEDULE BUT NO OVERNIGHTS UNTIL HE (AND SOMEONE ELSE) CAN PROVE TO ME HE IS A CHANGED MAN.
WHAT A WEEKEND. SUCH BS. IVE NEVER BEEN SO NERVOUS, ANXIOUS, HEARTBROKEN, AND SCARED TO DEATH IN MY WHOLE LIFE.
JUST GLAD I HAVE SO MANY AMAZING PEOPLE TO SUPPORT ME, MAKES ME FEEL LIKE IM NOT IN IT COMPLETELY ALONE. SURE IS A LOT EASIER WHEN YOU HAVE AN ARMY BEHIND YOU.
RYANS PARENTS DROVE ALL THE WAY TO BIG BEAR SUNDAY TO GET HIM OUT OF JAIL. AND HIS DAD DROVE HIM BACK UP THERE MONDAY TO GET HIS TRUCK. RYAN SENT ME ABOUT 50 TEXTS SUNDAY AND THEN COMPLETELY STOPPED. HE TEXTED ME YESTERDAY THAT HE LEFT CAES MEDS ON MY DOORSTEP (WE WERE HOME, DIDN'T KNOW UNTIL HE WAS GONE). I FINALLY TEXTED HIM BACK TO TELL HIM THAT WE NEEDED TO TALK. I INFORMED HIM ABOUT COURT. HE AGREED TO HAVE THINGS ON PAPER, AND EVEN AGREED TO NO OVERNIGHTS. HOPEFULLY WE CAN REACH AN AGREEMENT SOON, SO WE DONT HAVE TO WAIT TIL DEC TO GO TO COURT.
WHAT A MESS.
[IN OTHER NEWS....]
IM GETTING MUCH BETTER AT DRIVING MY CAR! WOOT! STILL TERRIFIED OF HILLS SO I PURPOSELY TAKE ROUTES THAT DONT INVOLVE HILLS LOL.
[FOOD]
IVE BEEN TERRIBLE. PROBABLY BECAUSE OF STRESS AND NOT GOING GROCERY SHOPPING... BUT THOSE ARE NOT EXCUSES. BAD JEN!
[EXERCISE]
I WENT TO YOGA TWICE THIS WEEK... FELT SO GOOD TO CLEAR MY MIND ESP SINCE IVE HAD SOOOOO MUCH ON IT. AND YESTERDAY I WENT RUNNING. THE WEATHER WAS AMAZING, SUN WAS OUT, BREEZE WAS COOL, ... IT IS FALL! ANDDDD I DID 4 MILES! I WAS SOOOOO STOKED! EVEN WHEN I GOT DONE, I FELT LIKE I COULD HAVE GONE FURTHER! I WANT TO GO AGAIN TODAY, BUT I THINK MY KNEES WOULD HATE ME, SO ILL REFRAIN AND GO TUESDAY (MONDAY IS MY YOGA DAY).
ALRIGHTY FOLKS... THATS ABOUT ALL I GOT FOR YA...
IM SUPPOSE TO TALK TO RYAN TODAY TO WORK SOMETHING OUT. I THINK IM GOING TO GO HARD. HE CANT WALK AWAY WITH A SLAP ON THE WRIST. ESP BECAUSE HE HAS TWO DUIS ALREADY... IM SURE HE IS FACING JAIL TIME. SO SCARY. JUST HAVE TO KEEP REMINDING MYSELF, THAT THESE WERE HIS CHOICES, NOT MINE. I DONT NEED TO FEEL BAD ABOUT ANY OF IT. HE HASN'T LEFT ME WITH OPTIONS... I JUST HATE THAT IT HAD TO ALL COME TO THIS.
STAND FAST MY FRIENDS.
OXOX
J
SO HERES THE DEAL...
[IN MY LIFE....]
LAST WEEKEND WAS RYAN'S WEEKEND WITH CAE... AND SATURDAY NIGHT (OCT 1ST) AROUND 7:30 I GOT TWO CALLS FROM A NUMBER I DIDN'T KNOW, SO I DIDN'T ANSWER IT, BUT A LITTLE WHILE AFTER I CHECKED MY VOICEMAIL... THE MESSAGE IS FROM SOME GIRL AND IT WENT A LITTLE LIKE THIS...
"HI JENNIFER, MY NAME IS REBECCA SMITH, AND YOU DONT KNOW BE BUT I KNOW RYAN AND HE WAS COMING UP TO VISIT ME TODAY IN BIG BEAR, AND GOT PULLED OVER. I HAVE YOUR SON. RYAN WAS STOPPED FOR SPEEDING, AND WHEN ASKED IF HE HAD BEEN DRINKING HE SAID 'I DRANK LAST NIGHT, BUT NOT TODAY'... WELLLLL, HE STILL HAD A BLOOD-ALCOHOL LEVEL HIGH ENOUGH TO BRING HIM TO JAIL. AND HE CALLED ME TO PICK UP CAELUM SO HE WOULDN'T GO TO C.P.S. HE IS FINE, BUT PLEASE GIVE ME A CALL BACK."
WTF?!?!?! I CALLED HER RIGHT BACK AND SHE SAID THAT RYAN GOT PULLED OVER AT 2 IN THE AFTERNOON, AND THAT HE SAID HE SHOULD BE OUT IN 5 HRS AND THAT SHE'D CALL THE SHERIFF TO GET AN UPDATE.
I COULDN'T BREATHE! I WAS SHAKING! I CAME IN AND TOLD JOSH AND ALMOST BROKE DOWN. SHE CALLED ME BACK AND SAID THAT RYAN WASNT GOING TO GET OUT UNTIL ABOUT 10AM SUNDAY MORNING, AND AFTER THAT WHO KNEW HOW LONG ITD TAKE TO GET HIS TRUCK OUT OF IMPOUND.... ARE YOU EFFING SERIOUS?! SO I TOLD HER ID BE UP IN 3 HRS. SHE ASKED IF I WAS SURE, THAT EVERYTHING REALLY WAS OK, AND OF COURSE I RESPONDED THAT THERE WAS NO WAY I WAS SLEEPING TONIGHT ANYWAYS SO IM ON MY WAY.
JOSH IS AMAZING AND DROVE BOTH WAYS UP TO THE TOP OF BIG BEAR AND BACK TO GET CAELUM (MIND YOU HE HAD ALREADY BEEN TO LA THAT DAY AND OUT TO VALLEY CENTER). BEST REUNION EVER. I NEVER KNEW WAS RELIEF WAS UNTIL I HAD THAT BOY IN MY ARMS! I COULDN'T STOP LOOKING AT HIM IN THE BACK OF MY CAR.
FIRST THING MONDAY I WENT TO COURT AND OF COURSE DIDN'T GET THERE EARLY ENOUGH, AND THEY COULDN'T HELP ME WITH A DAMN THING. OUR SYSTEM SUCKS. NOT EVEN EMERGENCY CUSTODY OR ANYTHING. SUCH BS. I WENT STRAIGHT TO CAES DAYCARE AND PICKED HIM UP 3 HRS EARLY BECAUSE I WAS TERRIFIED THAT RYAN MIGHT GO AND PICK HIM UP. I INFORMED THE DAYCARE OF EVERYTHING, AND THEY SAID LEGALLY THEY COULDNT STOP HIM, BUT THEY COULD CALL ME AND STALL. I WAS TOO PARANOID LOL.
SOOOO I WENT BACK TO COURT TUESDAY AT 6:30AM, RHIANA WAS AMAZING AND CAME OVER TO WATCH CAE AT 6AM (AND WE BOTH KNOW 6AM IS NOT CHILE TIME LOL). 7 HOURS LATER, I GOT A MEDIATION DATE FOR DECEMBER FOR FULL CUSTODY AND VISITATION... SAME SCHEDULE BUT NO OVERNIGHTS UNTIL HE (AND SOMEONE ELSE) CAN PROVE TO ME HE IS A CHANGED MAN.
WHAT A WEEKEND. SUCH BS. IVE NEVER BEEN SO NERVOUS, ANXIOUS, HEARTBROKEN, AND SCARED TO DEATH IN MY WHOLE LIFE.
JUST GLAD I HAVE SO MANY AMAZING PEOPLE TO SUPPORT ME, MAKES ME FEEL LIKE IM NOT IN IT COMPLETELY ALONE. SURE IS A LOT EASIER WHEN YOU HAVE AN ARMY BEHIND YOU.
RYANS PARENTS DROVE ALL THE WAY TO BIG BEAR SUNDAY TO GET HIM OUT OF JAIL. AND HIS DAD DROVE HIM BACK UP THERE MONDAY TO GET HIS TRUCK. RYAN SENT ME ABOUT 50 TEXTS SUNDAY AND THEN COMPLETELY STOPPED. HE TEXTED ME YESTERDAY THAT HE LEFT CAES MEDS ON MY DOORSTEP (WE WERE HOME, DIDN'T KNOW UNTIL HE WAS GONE). I FINALLY TEXTED HIM BACK TO TELL HIM THAT WE NEEDED TO TALK. I INFORMED HIM ABOUT COURT. HE AGREED TO HAVE THINGS ON PAPER, AND EVEN AGREED TO NO OVERNIGHTS. HOPEFULLY WE CAN REACH AN AGREEMENT SOON, SO WE DONT HAVE TO WAIT TIL DEC TO GO TO COURT.
WHAT A MESS.
[IN OTHER NEWS....]
IM GETTING MUCH BETTER AT DRIVING MY CAR! WOOT! STILL TERRIFIED OF HILLS SO I PURPOSELY TAKE ROUTES THAT DONT INVOLVE HILLS LOL.
[FOOD]
IVE BEEN TERRIBLE. PROBABLY BECAUSE OF STRESS AND NOT GOING GROCERY SHOPPING... BUT THOSE ARE NOT EXCUSES. BAD JEN!
[EXERCISE]
I WENT TO YOGA TWICE THIS WEEK... FELT SO GOOD TO CLEAR MY MIND ESP SINCE IVE HAD SOOOOO MUCH ON IT. AND YESTERDAY I WENT RUNNING. THE WEATHER WAS AMAZING, SUN WAS OUT, BREEZE WAS COOL, ... IT IS FALL! ANDDDD I DID 4 MILES! I WAS SOOOOO STOKED! EVEN WHEN I GOT DONE, I FELT LIKE I COULD HAVE GONE FURTHER! I WANT TO GO AGAIN TODAY, BUT I THINK MY KNEES WOULD HATE ME, SO ILL REFRAIN AND GO TUESDAY (MONDAY IS MY YOGA DAY).
ALRIGHTY FOLKS... THATS ABOUT ALL I GOT FOR YA...
IM SUPPOSE TO TALK TO RYAN TODAY TO WORK SOMETHING OUT. I THINK IM GOING TO GO HARD. HE CANT WALK AWAY WITH A SLAP ON THE WRIST. ESP BECAUSE HE HAS TWO DUIS ALREADY... IM SURE HE IS FACING JAIL TIME. SO SCARY. JUST HAVE TO KEEP REMINDING MYSELF, THAT THESE WERE HIS CHOICES, NOT MINE. I DONT NEED TO FEEL BAD ABOUT ANY OF IT. HE HASN'T LEFT ME WITH OPTIONS... I JUST HATE THAT IT HAD TO ALL COME TO THIS.
STAND FAST MY FRIENDS.
OXOX
J
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
[LONG TIME, NO POST!]
SORRY FOLKS... WE ALL KNOW 'LIFE HAPPENS' ... BUT WOW, ITS ALMOST BEEN A MONTH SINCE IVE POSTED! SORRY!
ALRIGHTY... THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED... WEEKS AGO... I RAN 4 MILES!!! I WAS ECSTATIC (AS YOU COULD IMAGINE!). THEN TRIED RUNNING AGAIN THE FOLLOWING WEEK, AND MY KNEE WAS NOT HAVING IT, AND ONLY LET ME DO 2 MILES. ITS BEING SO TEMPERAMENTAL. ARG. SO I HAVEN'T REALLY BEEN RUNNING, BUT I HAVE BEEN CONTINUING WITH THE GYM! GOT A LITTLE BEHIND LAST WEEK DUE TO BEING UBER BUSY... BUT WE ALL KNOW THIS IS NOT AN EXCUSE, SO IM SHAPING UP AND KICKING IT UP A NOTCH THIS WEEK.
[RANDOM NEWS...]
I GOT A NEW CAR! SO RELIEVED TO BE DONE WITH MY JEEP! I LOVE FILLING UP AT THE GAS STATION! $40! SO NICE COMPARED TO $70! HAHA. SO ITS THE SAME YEAR AS MY JEEP (2006) AND HAS 10K MORE MILES, BUT IT SERIOUSLY FEELS BRAND NEW. JOSH DID SOME MATH AND FIGURED ID SAVE ABOUT $700 A YEAR (WITHOUT COUNTING GAS! AND I DOUBLED MY MPG! 16 TO ABOUT 27!) AND THE LENGTH OF MY LOAN IS CUT DOWN BY 2 YEARS! SO ILL BE DONE IN 36 MO. SO STOKED!
DID I MENTION IT IS A STICK? DID I MENTION I DIDNT KNOW HOW TO DRIVE STICK? SO SAD TO NOTTTT DRIVE YOUR NEW CAR HOME! HAHA. SO JOSH AND I WENT DRIVING THE DAY AFTER AND I DID PRETTY GOOD. THEN HAD TO BE A BIG GIRL AND DRIVE IT 30 MILES TO WORK ALL BY MYSELF WITH NO JOSH SUPPORT! AY CARUMBA. I DEFINITELY FREAKED MYSELF OUT... WELL, I SHOULD SAY PSYCHED MYSELF OUT. I JUST GOT SO NERVOUS WITH CARS AROUND ME! I HATE LEARNING NEW THINGS AND NOT GETTING IT RIGHT AWAY. IM TERRIBLE, I HAVE NO FAITH IN MYSELF, AND GET WAY TOO NERVOUS FOR MY OWN GOOD. WHICH IS NEVER GOOD WHEN YOU ARE LEARNING SOMETHING NEW. OBVIOUSLY I JUST HAVE TO PICK MYSELF BACK UP EVERYTIME I STALL OR BURNOUT... IM STUCK WITH THE CAR, I CAN'T QUIT OR RUN AWAY LIKE A USUALLY DO. THE WHOLE EXPERIENCE HAS BEEN REALLY GREAT FOR ME. I LOVE SHOWING MYSELF THAT I CANNNN DO STUFF. ITS A GOOD CONFIDENCE BOOST (I NEED ALL THE BOOST I CAN!). IM CONFIDENT IN THE THINGS I KNOW HOW TO DO... BUT THE THINGS THAT ARE NEW. HA! NO WAY. STILL WORKING ON IT.
I PUT THIS LIL NOTE ON MY CAR TO WARN EVERYONE... FOR STALLING AND BURNING OUT... HAHA. IF YOU CAN'T READ IT, IT SAYS "CHICK LEARNING STICK." WHAT CAN YA DO? MANY PEOPLE HAVE DONE THIS BEFORE ME, IM SURE THERE HAVE BEEN WORST LEARNERS OUT THERE.... AT LEAST I HOPE.
SO YESTERDAY I HAD TO DRIVE A 60 MILE ROUND TRIP TO WORK, AND THEN I WANTED TO GO TO THE GYM AND ALMOST DIDN'T BECAUSE I WAS TOO SCARED TO BE ON EL CAMINO REAL WITH ALL THE TRAFFIC (5PM MIND YOU) AND ALL THE STOP LIGHTS. THEN I HEAR JOSH'S WORDS IN MY HEAD AND DECIDED THAT HE'D KICK MY BUTT IF I LET MY CAR STOP ME FROM GOING PLACES. ITS THE NEW ME. DOING NEW THINGS... GETTING OVER MY FEARS AND SELF CONFIDENT ISSUES... BRING IT ON.
IM ACTUALLY DOING MUCH BETTER EVERY TIME I GET INTO THE CAR. HOPEFULLY BY THE END OF THE WEEK, ILL BE A PRO. UNTIL THEN, IM GOING TO AVOID HILLS. :D
[OTHER RANDOM NEWS]
SATURDAY AFTER BUYING MY CAR... JOSH AND I WENT TO A 70S WHITE TRASH PARTY FOR HIS NEIGHBORS (AND MY SOON TO BE NEIGHBORS) 40TH BIRTHDAY. WE HAD AN ABSOLUTE BLAST! AND MY TWO WONDERFUL FRIENDS, RHIANA AND VICTORIA, JOINED. WE SERIOUSLY HAD SO MUCH FUN! JOSH AND I DID PRETTY DAMN GOOD WITH THE CORNHOLE TOURNAMENT (MUST HAVE BEEN THE BEER MUA HA HA). HERES SOME PICTURES...
WE SERIOUSLY HAD SO MUCH FUN. CHRIS AND LISA WENT ALL OUT. THE HAD A HILLBILLY HOT TUB... PICKUP TRUCK WITH A TARP FILLED WITH WATER (HAHA :D) AND THEY EVEN HAD A BAND, KFC CATERED (WHATS MORE WHITE TRASH THAN THAT!?), TWO KEGS, AND AN ENTIRE CORNHOLE TOURNAMENT (3 COURTS) AND ABOUT 24 TEAMS! EVERYTHING WAS PRETTY FREAKIN EPIC. I HAVEN'T BEEN TO TONS OF THEME PARTIES, BUT HOLY MOLY THIS WAS SERIOUSLY EPIC!
ALRIGHTY, BACK TO THE BLOG...
WELL, I DID SAY IT IS A BLOG ABOUT MY LIFE... SO I GUESS I DONT HAVE TO APOLOGIZE FOR MY CAR RANT ;D
[FOOD]
IVE BEEN SLACKING ON MY GOOD FOOD LATELY... PROBABLY BECAUSE I SLACKED ON EXERCISE THE LATTER PART OF LAST WEEK. I FEEL LIKE THEY REALLY DO GO HAND AND HAND. SO IM GOING TO IMPROVE THAT THIS WEEK.
[GYM]
WENT TO YOGA YESTERDAY, AND I HAVE TO SAY IT KINDA KICKED MY BUTT. WE DID MORE 'FLOW' YOGA AND I DEFINITELY BROKE A SWEAT! WOOT! IT WAS AWESOME! YOGA ALWAYS MAKES ME FEEL SO GREAT! EVEN IF ITS JUST MENTALLY. I THINK IT PUT ME IN A GOOD STATE OF MIND ON MY WAY HOME... THE 10 MILES WITH MY NEW CAR WAS PRETTY DANG FLAWLESS! LOL. MORE YOGA BEFORE DRIVING. :D TODAY IS A NEW DAY... I THINK I MIGHT ATTEMPT A RUN. WISH ME LUCK! MY LAST ONE DID NOT GO WELL AT ALL. I THINK I MIGHT JUST STICK TO TWO MILES FOR A WEEK OR TWO AND WORK UP TO A NEW GOAL... NEED TO BE NICE TO MY KNEES SO THEY WILL RETURN THE FAVOR AND BE NICE TO ME :D
ALRIGHTY FOLKS... I THINK THATS ABOUT ALL I HAVE TO SAY THIS MORNING....
HOPE ALL IS WELL!
OXOX
J
ALRIGHTY... THINGS THAT HAVE HAPPENED... WEEKS AGO... I RAN 4 MILES!!! I WAS ECSTATIC (AS YOU COULD IMAGINE!). THEN TRIED RUNNING AGAIN THE FOLLOWING WEEK, AND MY KNEE WAS NOT HAVING IT, AND ONLY LET ME DO 2 MILES. ITS BEING SO TEMPERAMENTAL. ARG. SO I HAVEN'T REALLY BEEN RUNNING, BUT I HAVE BEEN CONTINUING WITH THE GYM! GOT A LITTLE BEHIND LAST WEEK DUE TO BEING UBER BUSY... BUT WE ALL KNOW THIS IS NOT AN EXCUSE, SO IM SHAPING UP AND KICKING IT UP A NOTCH THIS WEEK.
[RANDOM NEWS...]
I GOT A NEW CAR! SO RELIEVED TO BE DONE WITH MY JEEP! I LOVE FILLING UP AT THE GAS STATION! $40! SO NICE COMPARED TO $70! HAHA. SO ITS THE SAME YEAR AS MY JEEP (2006) AND HAS 10K MORE MILES, BUT IT SERIOUSLY FEELS BRAND NEW. JOSH DID SOME MATH AND FIGURED ID SAVE ABOUT $700 A YEAR (WITHOUT COUNTING GAS! AND I DOUBLED MY MPG! 16 TO ABOUT 27!) AND THE LENGTH OF MY LOAN IS CUT DOWN BY 2 YEARS! SO ILL BE DONE IN 36 MO. SO STOKED!
I PUT THIS LIL NOTE ON MY CAR TO WARN EVERYONE... FOR STALLING AND BURNING OUT... HAHA. IF YOU CAN'T READ IT, IT SAYS "CHICK LEARNING STICK." WHAT CAN YA DO? MANY PEOPLE HAVE DONE THIS BEFORE ME, IM SURE THERE HAVE BEEN WORST LEARNERS OUT THERE.... AT LEAST I HOPE.
SO YESTERDAY I HAD TO DRIVE A 60 MILE ROUND TRIP TO WORK, AND THEN I WANTED TO GO TO THE GYM AND ALMOST DIDN'T BECAUSE I WAS TOO SCARED TO BE ON EL CAMINO REAL WITH ALL THE TRAFFIC (5PM MIND YOU) AND ALL THE STOP LIGHTS. THEN I HEAR JOSH'S WORDS IN MY HEAD AND DECIDED THAT HE'D KICK MY BUTT IF I LET MY CAR STOP ME FROM GOING PLACES. ITS THE NEW ME. DOING NEW THINGS... GETTING OVER MY FEARS AND SELF CONFIDENT ISSUES... BRING IT ON.
IM ACTUALLY DOING MUCH BETTER EVERY TIME I GET INTO THE CAR. HOPEFULLY BY THE END OF THE WEEK, ILL BE A PRO. UNTIL THEN, IM GOING TO AVOID HILLS. :D
[OTHER RANDOM NEWS]
SATURDAY AFTER BUYING MY CAR... JOSH AND I WENT TO A 70S WHITE TRASH PARTY FOR HIS NEIGHBORS (AND MY SOON TO BE NEIGHBORS) 40TH BIRTHDAY. WE HAD AN ABSOLUTE BLAST! AND MY TWO WONDERFUL FRIENDS, RHIANA AND VICTORIA, JOINED. WE SERIOUSLY HAD SO MUCH FUN! JOSH AND I DID PRETTY DAMN GOOD WITH THE CORNHOLE TOURNAMENT (MUST HAVE BEEN THE BEER MUA HA HA). HERES SOME PICTURES...
WE SERIOUSLY HAD SO MUCH FUN. CHRIS AND LISA WENT ALL OUT. THE HAD A HILLBILLY HOT TUB... PICKUP TRUCK WITH A TARP FILLED WITH WATER (HAHA :D) AND THEY EVEN HAD A BAND, KFC CATERED (WHATS MORE WHITE TRASH THAN THAT!?), TWO KEGS, AND AN ENTIRE CORNHOLE TOURNAMENT (3 COURTS) AND ABOUT 24 TEAMS! EVERYTHING WAS PRETTY FREAKIN EPIC. I HAVEN'T BEEN TO TONS OF THEME PARTIES, BUT HOLY MOLY THIS WAS SERIOUSLY EPIC!ALRIGHTY, BACK TO THE BLOG...
WELL, I DID SAY IT IS A BLOG ABOUT MY LIFE... SO I GUESS I DONT HAVE TO APOLOGIZE FOR MY CAR RANT ;D
[FOOD]
IVE BEEN SLACKING ON MY GOOD FOOD LATELY... PROBABLY BECAUSE I SLACKED ON EXERCISE THE LATTER PART OF LAST WEEK. I FEEL LIKE THEY REALLY DO GO HAND AND HAND. SO IM GOING TO IMPROVE THAT THIS WEEK.
[GYM]
WENT TO YOGA YESTERDAY, AND I HAVE TO SAY IT KINDA KICKED MY BUTT. WE DID MORE 'FLOW' YOGA AND I DEFINITELY BROKE A SWEAT! WOOT! IT WAS AWESOME! YOGA ALWAYS MAKES ME FEEL SO GREAT! EVEN IF ITS JUST MENTALLY. I THINK IT PUT ME IN A GOOD STATE OF MIND ON MY WAY HOME... THE 10 MILES WITH MY NEW CAR WAS PRETTY DANG FLAWLESS! LOL. MORE YOGA BEFORE DRIVING. :D TODAY IS A NEW DAY... I THINK I MIGHT ATTEMPT A RUN. WISH ME LUCK! MY LAST ONE DID NOT GO WELL AT ALL. I THINK I MIGHT JUST STICK TO TWO MILES FOR A WEEK OR TWO AND WORK UP TO A NEW GOAL... NEED TO BE NICE TO MY KNEES SO THEY WILL RETURN THE FAVOR AND BE NICE TO ME :D
ALRIGHTY FOLKS... I THINK THATS ABOUT ALL I HAVE TO SAY THIS MORNING....
HOPE ALL IS WELL!
OXOX
J
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
[QUICKY]
SO I RAN YESTERDAY. I DID A LITTLE OVER 2 MILES!!! BUT WHOS COUNTING RIGHT? HAHA. ME! SO STOKED! HOPEFULLY BY THE END OF THE MONTH I HOPE TO BE BACK UP TO 3-4 MILES AND UP FROM THERE! SO EXCITED! IT WAS RATHER WARM YESTERDAY, BUT I DID PRETTY DARN GOOD! I WAS SO SAD THAT I WAS SO TIRED DURING/AFTER... BUT I HAVE TO REMEMBER IM STARTING FROM THE BEGINNING AND TO BE PATIENT. SO ILL TRY TO STICK TO MY EXCITEMENT! YAYYYY!
I ALSO FORGOT ABOUT HOW MUCH BEING OUTDOORS MEANS TO ME! I WAS ON CLOUD NINE RUNNING IN THE SUNSHINE, WIND, WATCHING THE OCEAN.... AWWW ITS GOOD TO BE ALIVE!
BUT ON THE OTHER HAND.... (YES YOU DO HAVE TWO)
I WENT TO THE GYM TODAY AND REALIZED I HAD MISSED IT! SO BETWEEN MISSING RUNNING OUTSIDE, AND MISSING THE GYM AFTER A BUSY NO WORKOUT WEEKEND... I FEEL AS IF I AM FINALLY IN A ROUTINE AND IM HOOKED AGAIN ;D I KNEW ID COME AROUND MUA HA HA
SO AT THE GYM I DID ABOUT 12 MINUTES ON THE ROW MACHINE (CAN'T BELIEVE I USE TO DO 20 MIN! MY ARMS ARE ALREADY SORE!) THEN I MOVED ON TO FREE WEIGHTS. IM TRYING TO STRAY AWAY FROM THE MACHINES AT THE GYM BECAUSE THEY ONLY WORK CERTAIN MUSCLES. WHEN YOU USE FREE WEIGHTS YOU USE ALL OF THOSE STABILIZER MUSCLES THAT NORMALLY WOULDN'T GET USED ON A MACHINE. I DID BICEPS, TRICEPS, AND DELTOIDS. MY ARMS ALREADY FEEL IT. ITS A GOOD SORE, AT LEAST I KNOW IM ACCOMPLISHING SOMETHING! HAHA. THEN I MOVED ONTO MY SWIMMING. THIS IS WHERE I FELT IT THE MOST. BETWEEN MY RUN YESTERDAY, ROWING, AND FREE WEIGHTS... MY ARMS AND LEGS WERE MADE OF LEAD. I LOOKED AND FELT LIKE A DROWNING FISH (DO FISH DROWN?), BUT STILL MANAGED 20 MIN.
I KNOW THIS STRENGTH TRAINING WILL GET EASIER.... BUT WOWWY! APPARENTLY LIFTING A 25LB TODDLER MULTIPLE TIMES A DAY WAS ENOUGH OF A WORKOUT. APPARENTLY NOT!
SPEAKING OF TODDLERS.... GUESSSSSS WHAT?! I HAVE GREAT NEWS! I DROPPED CAE OFF AT THE GYM DAYCARE FOR THE SECOND TIME AND WHEN I WENT TO GO GET HIM ABOUT AN HOUR 15 MIN LATER.... THE LADY SAID HE DIDN'T CRY AT ALL AND PLAYED THE WHOLE TIME!!!! YAYAYYAYAYAYYYYYYY! I LOVE IT! IM SO EXCITED! I KNEW REGARDLESS OR NOT OF CRYING, I WAS GOING TO DO MY WORKOUT AND CONTINUE TO BRING HIM. I CAN'T LET HAVING A CHILD GIVE ME AN EXCUSE TO NOT WORKOUT. BUT! THE FACT THAT HE HAS FUN TOO! IS AMAZING! I DON'T HAVE TO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT LEAVING HIM AND WE BOTH GET A WORKOUT!
IM GETTING EXCITED :D I FEEL LIKE MYSELF AGAIN. HOPEFULLY AFTER A COUPLE OF WEEKS ILL BE A MORE TONED VERSION OF MYSELF (ONE CAN HOPE!).
SORRY FOR THE SHORT ENTRY!
HOPE ALL IS WELL!
J
I ALSO FORGOT ABOUT HOW MUCH BEING OUTDOORS MEANS TO ME! I WAS ON CLOUD NINE RUNNING IN THE SUNSHINE, WIND, WATCHING THE OCEAN.... AWWW ITS GOOD TO BE ALIVE!
BUT ON THE OTHER HAND.... (YES YOU DO HAVE TWO)
I WENT TO THE GYM TODAY AND REALIZED I HAD MISSED IT! SO BETWEEN MISSING RUNNING OUTSIDE, AND MISSING THE GYM AFTER A BUSY NO WORKOUT WEEKEND... I FEEL AS IF I AM FINALLY IN A ROUTINE AND IM HOOKED AGAIN ;D I KNEW ID COME AROUND MUA HA HA
SO AT THE GYM I DID ABOUT 12 MINUTES ON THE ROW MACHINE (CAN'T BELIEVE I USE TO DO 20 MIN! MY ARMS ARE ALREADY SORE!) THEN I MOVED ON TO FREE WEIGHTS. IM TRYING TO STRAY AWAY FROM THE MACHINES AT THE GYM BECAUSE THEY ONLY WORK CERTAIN MUSCLES. WHEN YOU USE FREE WEIGHTS YOU USE ALL OF THOSE STABILIZER MUSCLES THAT NORMALLY WOULDN'T GET USED ON A MACHINE. I DID BICEPS, TRICEPS, AND DELTOIDS. MY ARMS ALREADY FEEL IT. ITS A GOOD SORE, AT LEAST I KNOW IM ACCOMPLISHING SOMETHING! HAHA. THEN I MOVED ONTO MY SWIMMING. THIS IS WHERE I FELT IT THE MOST. BETWEEN MY RUN YESTERDAY, ROWING, AND FREE WEIGHTS... MY ARMS AND LEGS WERE MADE OF LEAD. I LOOKED AND FELT LIKE A DROWNING FISH (DO FISH DROWN?), BUT STILL MANAGED 20 MIN.
I KNOW THIS STRENGTH TRAINING WILL GET EASIER.... BUT WOWWY! APPARENTLY LIFTING A 25LB TODDLER MULTIPLE TIMES A DAY WAS ENOUGH OF A WORKOUT. APPARENTLY NOT!
SPEAKING OF TODDLERS.... GUESSSSSS WHAT?! I HAVE GREAT NEWS! I DROPPED CAE OFF AT THE GYM DAYCARE FOR THE SECOND TIME AND WHEN I WENT TO GO GET HIM ABOUT AN HOUR 15 MIN LATER.... THE LADY SAID HE DIDN'T CRY AT ALL AND PLAYED THE WHOLE TIME!!!! YAYAYYAYAYAYYYYYYY! I LOVE IT! IM SO EXCITED! I KNEW REGARDLESS OR NOT OF CRYING, I WAS GOING TO DO MY WORKOUT AND CONTINUE TO BRING HIM. I CAN'T LET HAVING A CHILD GIVE ME AN EXCUSE TO NOT WORKOUT. BUT! THE FACT THAT HE HAS FUN TOO! IS AMAZING! I DON'T HAVE TO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT LEAVING HIM AND WE BOTH GET A WORKOUT!
IM GETTING EXCITED :D I FEEL LIKE MYSELF AGAIN. HOPEFULLY AFTER A COUPLE OF WEEKS ILL BE A MORE TONED VERSION OF MYSELF (ONE CAN HOPE!).
SORRY FOR THE SHORT ENTRY!
HOPE ALL IS WELL!
J
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
[ITS GROOVY, BABY]
[LAST WEEK]
CAE DID GREAT WHEN I DROPPED HIM OFF AT THE KIDS CLUB AT LA FITNESS. I THOUGH HE WOULD HAVE FREAKED WHEN I LEFT, BUT HE DID GREAT. THE LADY SAID HE FREAKED IN THE MIDDLE AND CRIED, SO SHE WALKED AROUND WITH HIM FOR A LITTLE WHILE. BUT WHEN I WENT TO GET HIM AN HOUR LATER HE WAS BUSY AT THE JUNGLE GYM HAHA. ALAS, HE DID RUN TO ME CRYING LIKE 'WHY DID YOU LEAVEEEE MEEE?!' IM HOPING IT WAS JUST THE TIMING OF EVERYTHING (TIRED/DINNER TIME COMBO MAKES FOR ONE GRUMPY IRRITABLE BOY).
[FITNESS ASSESSMENT]
WENT AWESOME . THE LITTLE BODY FAT MACHINE SAID I WAS 19%, NOT THE 27% IT SAID LAST WEEK... I WOULD LOVE TO DO IT AGAIN TO SEE IF ONE OF THOSE NUMBERS WAS A FLUKE... BUTTTT I DONT WANT TO PRESS MY CHANCES. 19% SOUNDS AWESOME HAHA. THE WORKOUT I GOT FROM THE TRAINER WAS AWESOME. A REAL EYE OPENER ON HOW MUCH I NEED TO WORK ON STRENGTH TRAINING. THE TWO DAYS AFTER I COULDN'T LAUGH, COUGH, SNEEZE, OR LIFT MY ARMS WITHOUT BEING IN PAIN HAHA. SOOOO YES, NEW GOALS IN THAT AREA FOR SURE!
[WEEKEND]
I HAD AN AWESOME WORKOUT GROOVE GOING LAST WEEK. I DEFINITELY SLACKED FROM FRIDAY ON. BAD JEN!
I WAS SOOOOO SORE FROM THURSDAY THAT I SLACKED FRIDAY AFTER WORK. AND THIS WEEKEND WAS JUST TOO BUSY : / (I ALWAYS MESS UP ON WEEKENDS! ARG!)
I KNOW. I KNOW. I DIDN'T HAVE AN EXCUSE. I NEED TO TRY AND FIGURE OUT THIS WEEK TO GET BACK INTO MY GROOVE. ITS HARD BECAUSE JOSH'S CAR ISN'T RUNNING SO ONE CAR BETWEEN TWO PEOPLE WITH TWO SCHEDULES SOMETIMES MAKES THINGS DIFFICULT. SO TODAY I GUESS I WILL HAVE TO RUN INSTEAD OF THE GYM BECAUSE HE HAS TO TUTOR. GYM DEFINITELY TOMORROW. NO GYM THURSDAY... ARG (WHICH IM SUPER SAD ABOUT BECAUSE THAT WAS A YOGA DAY! I MISSED IT THURSDAY BECAUSE OF MY FITNESS ASSESSMENT, THEN NO CLASS MONDAY BECAUSE OF LABOR DAY.... NEXT MONDAY IT IS!).
[IN OTHER NEWS...]
JOSH AND I LOOKED AT MY FINANCES. NEVER FUN, BUT DEFINITELY NECESSARY. ITS HARD BECAUSE I DONT FEEL LIKE IM A CRAZY SHOPPER OR SPEND MY MONEY ON DRUGS OR ANYTHING.... ITS REALLY JUST THAT I HAVE A LOT OF BILLS, IM FEEDING 3 PEOPLE, AND MY CAR SUCKS GAS.
THE PLAN...
I LITERALLY CANNOT EAT OUT. I USUALLY DO ABOUT 3 TIMES A MONTH... BUT I REALLY SHOULD JUST HAVE A "BROKE" MENTALITY (WHICH I ALREADY DO.... HAHA.)
NEXT STEP:
GET RID OF MY CAR :o( I STILL OWE QUITE A HANDFUL ON IT, IT USES WAY TOO MUCH GAS FOR THE AMT I DRIVE IT. AND A LOT OF MY LIGHTS HAVE BEEN COMING ON (TRACTION CONTROL, CHECK ENGINE, AIRBAG...) AND I STILL HAVE MY UNSOLVED VACUUM LEAK (WHICH IN THEORY SHOULD BE CHEAP TO FIX... BUT EXPENSIVE IN LABOR TO FINDDD IT). JOSH THINKS IT MIGHT JUST GO DOWN HILL FAST. I BELIEVE HIM. WHICH SUCKS BECAUSE I LOVEEE MY JEEP.
SO YEAH. YOU KNOW ME AND CARS. IM QUITE OBSESSED. SO OF COURSE IT IS ALL I AM THINKING OF LATELY. I WANT SOMETHING PRETTY CHEAP (IF I WANT TO SAVE ON A CAR I MIGHT AS WELL CUT COST IN THREE AREAS: AMT FINANCED, GAS, AND INSURANCE, INSTEAD OF JUST CUTTING COST IN GAS.
IM THINKING SUBARU IMPREZA WAGON. WE SHALL SEE, DEPENDING IF I FIND ONE I LIKE IN MY PRICE RANGE WITH A DECENT AMOUNT OF MILES. (WISH ME LUCK!).
ALRIGHTY I GUESS THATS ALL I HAVE FOLKS. ILL LET YOU KNOW HOW THIS WEEK STARTS OFF. I THINK BY THE END OF THE WEEK I MIGHT WEIGH MYSELF TO SEE IF IVE MADE ANY PROGRESS...
THANKS FOR LISTENING,
J
CAE DID GREAT WHEN I DROPPED HIM OFF AT THE KIDS CLUB AT LA FITNESS. I THOUGH HE WOULD HAVE FREAKED WHEN I LEFT, BUT HE DID GREAT. THE LADY SAID HE FREAKED IN THE MIDDLE AND CRIED, SO SHE WALKED AROUND WITH HIM FOR A LITTLE WHILE. BUT WHEN I WENT TO GET HIM AN HOUR LATER HE WAS BUSY AT THE JUNGLE GYM HAHA. ALAS, HE DID RUN TO ME CRYING LIKE 'WHY DID YOU LEAVEEEE MEEE?!' IM HOPING IT WAS JUST THE TIMING OF EVERYTHING (TIRED/DINNER TIME COMBO MAKES FOR ONE GRUMPY IRRITABLE BOY).
[FITNESS ASSESSMENT]
WENT AWESOME . THE LITTLE BODY FAT MACHINE SAID I WAS 19%, NOT THE 27% IT SAID LAST WEEK... I WOULD LOVE TO DO IT AGAIN TO SEE IF ONE OF THOSE NUMBERS WAS A FLUKE... BUTTTT I DONT WANT TO PRESS MY CHANCES. 19% SOUNDS AWESOME HAHA. THE WORKOUT I GOT FROM THE TRAINER WAS AWESOME. A REAL EYE OPENER ON HOW MUCH I NEED TO WORK ON STRENGTH TRAINING. THE TWO DAYS AFTER I COULDN'T LAUGH, COUGH, SNEEZE, OR LIFT MY ARMS WITHOUT BEING IN PAIN HAHA. SOOOO YES, NEW GOALS IN THAT AREA FOR SURE!
[WEEKEND]
I HAD AN AWESOME WORKOUT GROOVE GOING LAST WEEK. I DEFINITELY SLACKED FROM FRIDAY ON. BAD JEN!
I WAS SOOOOO SORE FROM THURSDAY THAT I SLACKED FRIDAY AFTER WORK. AND THIS WEEKEND WAS JUST TOO BUSY : / (I ALWAYS MESS UP ON WEEKENDS! ARG!)
I KNOW. I KNOW. I DIDN'T HAVE AN EXCUSE. I NEED TO TRY AND FIGURE OUT THIS WEEK TO GET BACK INTO MY GROOVE. ITS HARD BECAUSE JOSH'S CAR ISN'T RUNNING SO ONE CAR BETWEEN TWO PEOPLE WITH TWO SCHEDULES SOMETIMES MAKES THINGS DIFFICULT. SO TODAY I GUESS I WILL HAVE TO RUN INSTEAD OF THE GYM BECAUSE HE HAS TO TUTOR. GYM DEFINITELY TOMORROW. NO GYM THURSDAY... ARG (WHICH IM SUPER SAD ABOUT BECAUSE THAT WAS A YOGA DAY! I MISSED IT THURSDAY BECAUSE OF MY FITNESS ASSESSMENT, THEN NO CLASS MONDAY BECAUSE OF LABOR DAY.... NEXT MONDAY IT IS!).
[IN OTHER NEWS...]
JOSH AND I LOOKED AT MY FINANCES. NEVER FUN, BUT DEFINITELY NECESSARY. ITS HARD BECAUSE I DONT FEEL LIKE IM A CRAZY SHOPPER OR SPEND MY MONEY ON DRUGS OR ANYTHING.... ITS REALLY JUST THAT I HAVE A LOT OF BILLS, IM FEEDING 3 PEOPLE, AND MY CAR SUCKS GAS.
THE PLAN...
I LITERALLY CANNOT EAT OUT. I USUALLY DO ABOUT 3 TIMES A MONTH... BUT I REALLY SHOULD JUST HAVE A "BROKE" MENTALITY (WHICH I ALREADY DO.... HAHA.)
NEXT STEP:
GET RID OF MY CAR :o( I STILL OWE QUITE A HANDFUL ON IT, IT USES WAY TOO MUCH GAS FOR THE AMT I DRIVE IT. AND A LOT OF MY LIGHTS HAVE BEEN COMING ON (TRACTION CONTROL, CHECK ENGINE, AIRBAG...) AND I STILL HAVE MY UNSOLVED VACUUM LEAK (WHICH IN THEORY SHOULD BE CHEAP TO FIX... BUT EXPENSIVE IN LABOR TO FINDDD IT). JOSH THINKS IT MIGHT JUST GO DOWN HILL FAST. I BELIEVE HIM. WHICH SUCKS BECAUSE I LOVEEE MY JEEP.
SO YEAH. YOU KNOW ME AND CARS. IM QUITE OBSESSED. SO OF COURSE IT IS ALL I AM THINKING OF LATELY. I WANT SOMETHING PRETTY CHEAP (IF I WANT TO SAVE ON A CAR I MIGHT AS WELL CUT COST IN THREE AREAS: AMT FINANCED, GAS, AND INSURANCE, INSTEAD OF JUST CUTTING COST IN GAS.
IM THINKING SUBARU IMPREZA WAGON. WE SHALL SEE, DEPENDING IF I FIND ONE I LIKE IN MY PRICE RANGE WITH A DECENT AMOUNT OF MILES. (WISH ME LUCK!).
ALRIGHTY I GUESS THATS ALL I HAVE FOLKS. ILL LET YOU KNOW HOW THIS WEEK STARTS OFF. I THINK BY THE END OF THE WEEK I MIGHT WEIGH MYSELF TO SEE IF IVE MADE ANY PROGRESS...
THANKS FOR LISTENING,
J
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
[CROSS YOUR FINGERS]
I FEEL LIKE I AM ON A ROLL.
IVE BEEN DRINKING ALL MY WATER... AND DONT FEEL LIKE A FULL WATER BALLOON ANYMORE. I ALSO FIND THAT ONCE I START DRINKING MY WATER FOR THE DAY, I BECOME REALLY THRISTY AND ITS NOT AS HARD TO DRINK ALL MY WATER WITHOUT SPENDING MOST OF MY DAY IN THE BATHROOM (SORRY IF ITS TMI).
IVE ALSO WORKED OUT EVERYDAY THIS WEEK. GRANTED ITS ONLY WEDNESDAY MORNING, BUT IM ALSO GOING TO THE GYM TODAY. :D
WHICH BRINGS ME TO WHY YOU ARE CROSSING YOUR FINGERS...
LA FITNESS HAS A KIDS ZONE... ITS ONLY $10 A MONTH FOR UNLIMITED. SUCH AN AWESOME DEAL! SO OF COURSE I ENROLLED FOR IT. BUT TODAY IS GOING TO BE THE FIRST TIME I USE IT. IM REALLY HOPING CAE DOESN'T FREAK. HES SO FUNNY SOMETIMES, HE'LL CRY BECAUSE IM LEAVING, BUT SOMETIMES HE'LL CRY BECAUSE HE DOESN'T WANT TO LEAVE. HOPING THERE IS ENOUGH TO DISTRACT HIM SO HE'S A HAPPY CAMPER WHILE I GET MY SWEAT ON. THE PEOPLE WILL BE NEW, AND THE SURROUNDINGS WILL BE NEW. HOPEFULLY IT GOES WELL.
TODAY I PLAN ON PUMPING SOME IRON AND SWIMMING. TOTALLY STOKED. ESP ABOUT MY HOT PINK SWIM CAP (YOU KNOW YOU LOVE IT!) HAHA.
IM SUPER GLAD THAT IM IN BETTER SPIRITS. IM STARTING TO FEE LIKE MYSELF AGAIN. YAY ENDORPHINES!
[IN OTHER NEWS]
TYLER AGREED TO MOVE WITH US TO LEUCADIA! SO STOKED! IVE LOVEDDDDD LIVING WITH MY BROTHER. PROBABLY BECAUSE BETWEEN COLLEGE AND THEN LIVING IN DIFFERENT CITIES, I NEVER REALLY GOT TO SEE HIM. SO IM ALWAYS STOKED TO SEE HIM WHEN HE GETS HOME. I SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT TO MOVE, GETTING EXCITED, TOO BAD ITS STILL ABOUT A MONTH AND A HALF AWAY.... BREATHEEEEE ITLL ALWAYS GET HERE FASTER THAN YOU THINK IT WILL (RIGHT?)
ANDDDD WE WENT TO LOOK AT CAELUMS NEW SCHOOL (LEUCADIA CHILDRENS SCHOOL) YESTERDAY, AND IT WAS FANTASTIC. CAE CRIED WHEN WE LEFT HAHA.
CAE ALSO GOT HAIR CUT NUMBER 2 YESTERDAY. HE LITERALLY LOOKS LIKE A LITTLE MAN. ILL HAVE TO POST A PICTURE LATER TODAY. :D
THINGS ARE ON THE UPSWING IN MY LIFE, FINALLY ALMOST OUT OF MY RUT. HOPE YOU ARE ALL SUPER AWESOME OUT THERE IN BLOG LAND OXOX
J
HOPE EVERYONE IS DOING WELL!
IVE BEEN DRINKING ALL MY WATER... AND DONT FEEL LIKE A FULL WATER BALLOON ANYMORE. I ALSO FIND THAT ONCE I START DRINKING MY WATER FOR THE DAY, I BECOME REALLY THRISTY AND ITS NOT AS HARD TO DRINK ALL MY WATER WITHOUT SPENDING MOST OF MY DAY IN THE BATHROOM (SORRY IF ITS TMI).
IVE ALSO WORKED OUT EVERYDAY THIS WEEK. GRANTED ITS ONLY WEDNESDAY MORNING, BUT IM ALSO GOING TO THE GYM TODAY. :D
WHICH BRINGS ME TO WHY YOU ARE CROSSING YOUR FINGERS...
LA FITNESS HAS A KIDS ZONE... ITS ONLY $10 A MONTH FOR UNLIMITED. SUCH AN AWESOME DEAL! SO OF COURSE I ENROLLED FOR IT. BUT TODAY IS GOING TO BE THE FIRST TIME I USE IT. IM REALLY HOPING CAE DOESN'T FREAK. HES SO FUNNY SOMETIMES, HE'LL CRY BECAUSE IM LEAVING, BUT SOMETIMES HE'LL CRY BECAUSE HE DOESN'T WANT TO LEAVE. HOPING THERE IS ENOUGH TO DISTRACT HIM SO HE'S A HAPPY CAMPER WHILE I GET MY SWEAT ON. THE PEOPLE WILL BE NEW, AND THE SURROUNDINGS WILL BE NEW. HOPEFULLY IT GOES WELL.
TODAY I PLAN ON PUMPING SOME IRON AND SWIMMING. TOTALLY STOKED. ESP ABOUT MY HOT PINK SWIM CAP (YOU KNOW YOU LOVE IT!) HAHA.
IM SUPER GLAD THAT IM IN BETTER SPIRITS. IM STARTING TO FEE LIKE MYSELF AGAIN. YAY ENDORPHINES!
[IN OTHER NEWS]
TYLER AGREED TO MOVE WITH US TO LEUCADIA! SO STOKED! IVE LOVEDDDDD LIVING WITH MY BROTHER. PROBABLY BECAUSE BETWEEN COLLEGE AND THEN LIVING IN DIFFERENT CITIES, I NEVER REALLY GOT TO SEE HIM. SO IM ALWAYS STOKED TO SEE HIM WHEN HE GETS HOME. I SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT TO MOVE, GETTING EXCITED, TOO BAD ITS STILL ABOUT A MONTH AND A HALF AWAY.... BREATHEEEEE ITLL ALWAYS GET HERE FASTER THAN YOU THINK IT WILL (RIGHT?)
ANDDDD WE WENT TO LOOK AT CAELUMS NEW SCHOOL (LEUCADIA CHILDRENS SCHOOL) YESTERDAY, AND IT WAS FANTASTIC. CAE CRIED WHEN WE LEFT HAHA.
CAE ALSO GOT HAIR CUT NUMBER 2 YESTERDAY. HE LITERALLY LOOKS LIKE A LITTLE MAN. ILL HAVE TO POST A PICTURE LATER TODAY. :D
THINGS ARE ON THE UPSWING IN MY LIFE, FINALLY ALMOST OUT OF MY RUT. HOPE YOU ARE ALL SUPER AWESOME OUT THERE IN BLOG LAND OXOX
J
HOPE EVERYONE IS DOING WELL!
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
[YOGI BEAR]
I <3 YOGAAAAA!
I USE TO GO TO YOGA ONCE A WEEK. SOMETIMES ID RUN BEFOREHAND... BEST COMBO EVER! RUN, THEN STRETCH FOR AN HOUR!? YES PLEASE! :D THE LADY WHO INSTRUCTED US WAS A WOMAN I WORKED WITH. ATTENDANCE FELL, SO SHE STOPPED DOING YOGA IN THE PARK. CORRECTION: FREE YOGA IN THE PARK. SO I OBVIOUSLY HAD GOTTEN USE TO HER STYLE AND THE ATMOSPHERE. I DIDN'T WANT TO JOIN A YOGA STUDIO WITH SOME INSTRUCTOR I MIGHT NOT LIKE. THAT AND AT THE TIME, I WAS WAYYYY MORE FOCUSED ON RUNNING.
THEN AFTER MY KNEE WAS TO WEAK TO RUN ON, I CONSIDERED JOINING A YOGA STUDIO, BUT IT WAS JUST TOO EXPENSIVE FOR SOMETHING I WANTED TO DO REGULARLY.
SOOOOOO NOW THAT IM A GYM MEMBER AND HAVE A "YES (WO)MAN" STATE OF MIND... I HAVE DECIDED TO TAKE USE OF THEIR CLASSES. NORMALLY I WOULDN'T DREAM OF DOING THIS. IM A REBEL, I ENJOY DOING MY OWN THING, AND PUSHING MYSELF (WHICH DOES AND DOESN'T WORK HAHA). BUT! BECAUSE THIS IS THE NEW JEN.... I TOOK A YOGA CLASS LAST NIGHT! GO ME! I WAS SO SCARED. WELL, NOT TOO SCARED, BUT NERVOUS. WASN'T SURE IF ID LIKE THE INSTRUCTOR... NOT SURE IF ID REMEMBER ALL THE MOVES, OR IF EVER INSTRUCTOR STICKS TO THE SAME GENERAL MOVES. BUT I DID IT! AND LOVED IT! SO STOKED :D FELT GREAT AFTER, AND IM STOKED. THE INSTRUCTOR WAS HILARIOUS, I ENJOYED HIS RANDOM JOKES ABOUT HOW CERTAIN MOVES WOULD HELP YOUR EYESIGHT AND MOVE YOUR HANDS BACK 1 3/8 INCHES, NO HOW ABOUT 7 6/13 INCHES. SO RANDOM. HE KEPT TELLING EVERYONE TO SMILE. WHICH WAS RIDICULOUS, AND MADE ME SMILE JUST BECAUSE IT WAS FUNNY HAHA. I REALLY ENJOYED MYSELF, SO HAPPY I GOT THE COURAGE TO GO (EVEN IF I DID MAKE AN ASS OUT OF MYSELF).
ALRIGHTY.... A SHORT TID BIT THIS FINE TUESDAY MORNING. LOTS OF ERRANDS THIS MORNING (INCLUDING LOOKING AT A NEW SCHOOL FOR CAE WHEN I MOVE TO ENCINITAS).
DAY 5 OF ALL MY WATER. FEEL GREAT! STOKED!
TAKE CARE YA'LL OXOX
J
I USE TO GO TO YOGA ONCE A WEEK. SOMETIMES ID RUN BEFOREHAND... BEST COMBO EVER! RUN, THEN STRETCH FOR AN HOUR!? YES PLEASE! :D THE LADY WHO INSTRUCTED US WAS A WOMAN I WORKED WITH. ATTENDANCE FELL, SO SHE STOPPED DOING YOGA IN THE PARK. CORRECTION: FREE YOGA IN THE PARK. SO I OBVIOUSLY HAD GOTTEN USE TO HER STYLE AND THE ATMOSPHERE. I DIDN'T WANT TO JOIN A YOGA STUDIO WITH SOME INSTRUCTOR I MIGHT NOT LIKE. THAT AND AT THE TIME, I WAS WAYYYY MORE FOCUSED ON RUNNING.
THEN AFTER MY KNEE WAS TO WEAK TO RUN ON, I CONSIDERED JOINING A YOGA STUDIO, BUT IT WAS JUST TOO EXPENSIVE FOR SOMETHING I WANTED TO DO REGULARLY.
SOOOOOO NOW THAT IM A GYM MEMBER AND HAVE A "YES (WO)MAN" STATE OF MIND... I HAVE DECIDED TO TAKE USE OF THEIR CLASSES. NORMALLY I WOULDN'T DREAM OF DOING THIS. IM A REBEL, I ENJOY DOING MY OWN THING, AND PUSHING MYSELF (WHICH DOES AND DOESN'T WORK HAHA). BUT! BECAUSE THIS IS THE NEW JEN.... I TOOK A YOGA CLASS LAST NIGHT! GO ME! I WAS SO SCARED. WELL, NOT TOO SCARED, BUT NERVOUS. WASN'T SURE IF ID LIKE THE INSTRUCTOR... NOT SURE IF ID REMEMBER ALL THE MOVES, OR IF EVER INSTRUCTOR STICKS TO THE SAME GENERAL MOVES. BUT I DID IT! AND LOVED IT! SO STOKED :D FELT GREAT AFTER, AND IM STOKED. THE INSTRUCTOR WAS HILARIOUS, I ENJOYED HIS RANDOM JOKES ABOUT HOW CERTAIN MOVES WOULD HELP YOUR EYESIGHT AND MOVE YOUR HANDS BACK 1 3/8 INCHES, NO HOW ABOUT 7 6/13 INCHES. SO RANDOM. HE KEPT TELLING EVERYONE TO SMILE. WHICH WAS RIDICULOUS, AND MADE ME SMILE JUST BECAUSE IT WAS FUNNY HAHA. I REALLY ENJOYED MYSELF, SO HAPPY I GOT THE COURAGE TO GO (EVEN IF I DID MAKE AN ASS OUT OF MYSELF).
ALRIGHTY.... A SHORT TID BIT THIS FINE TUESDAY MORNING. LOTS OF ERRANDS THIS MORNING (INCLUDING LOOKING AT A NEW SCHOOL FOR CAE WHEN I MOVE TO ENCINITAS).
DAY 5 OF ALL MY WATER. FEEL GREAT! STOKED!
TAKE CARE YA'LL OXOX
J
Friday, August 26, 2011
[JUST KEEP SWIMMING]
SO I AM OFFICIALLY A PROUD GYM MEMBER AT LA FITNESS!
YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE HOW EXCITED, HAPPY, MOTIVATED, STOKED I WAS AFTER MY WORKOUT YESTERDAY. I RAN A MILE, DID A COUPLE WEIGHT MACHINES (GET MY QUADS STRONGER!) AND THEN HOPPED IN THE POOL. YOU DONT UNDERSTAND, THE POOL WAS MY MAIN MOTIVATION FOR JOINING A GYM. I WAS SO EXCITED I COULDNT WAIT TO JUMP IN! THE BEST PART WAS IT WASN'T CROWDED! I PICKED A LANE (ALL OF THEM WERE DOUBLED UP) SO I HAD TO GET MY NERVE TO ASK TO SHARE. A NICE MIDAGED WOMAN WHO WENT SLOW. PERFECTTTTT. IM A FAST SWIMMER. THE HARD PART IS I ALWAYS WANT TO GO FAST, BUT THEN I DONT LAST LONG. SO IT WAS GREAT TO SHARE A LANE AND JUST CRUISE; ESP FOR MY FIRST TIME BACK IN THE WATER (SWIM CAP AND ALL!) SINCE COLLEGE(!). LA FITNESS HAS A SALT WATER POOL, WHICH IS SUPER WEIRD AND SUPER COOL. THE TIP OF MY TONGUE FELT FUNNY AT THE END OF MY 20 MINS. I KNOW, I KNOW, I ONLY LASTED 20 MIN, BUT IM JUST TELLING MYSELF THAT THIS IS ALL A JOURNEY AND IM STARTING FROM THE BEGINNING AGAIN. BABY STEPS. I GOT THIS.
SPEAKING OF STARTING POINTS... WHEN I SIGNED UP I WAS OFFERED TO DO A BODY FAT CALCULATION... I WAS TERRIFIED. BUT I DID IT ANYWAYS. I HAD TO USE THEM AT CURVES AND I THINK MY BEST % WAS 17.2 (IN HIGH SCHOOL MIND YOU!) AND YESTERDAY I WAS 27.7%. I WAS DEVESTATED. AGAIN, IM PUTTING MY EGO ASIDE AND JUST MOVING FORWARD. THATS ALL YOU CAN DO SOMETIMES. IT CAN ONLY GET BETTER I GUESS! AFTER SEEING THAT PERCENTAGE AND TAKING THOSE PICTURES YESTERDAY IM PRETTY DAMN DETERMINED TO GET MY LIFE BACK AND MY BODY BACK.
NORMALLY ID DECLINE TO USE THE BODY FAT CALCULATOR AND A FREE FITNESS EVALUATION... THIS TIME I DIDN'T. ITS LIKE THE MOVIE 'YES MAN' I SHOULD TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THESE THINGS WHILE I CAN. MOST OF THE TIME I DONT DO THINGS BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO SEEM DUMB, WEAK, SILLY WHATEVER. I HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT IM PROBABLY AVERAGE, AND THEY SEE PEOPLE IN WORSE SHAPE THAN ME. ITS ALL WORKING TOWARDS THE GREATER GOAL. SO WHAT IF I CAN'T BENCH MY BODY WEIGHT? I NEED TO FIND SOME SELF CONFIDENCE... I KNOW ILL GET IT ALONG THE WAY. BUT EVEN IN GOOD SHAPE I FEEL LIKE I WOULD HAVE DECLINED IT. ITS DEEPER THAN JUST LOOKING SILLY, I REALLY FEEL LIKE I NEED TO GET OVER THESE SELF CONFIDENCE/ESTEEM ISSUES. IVE BEEN CARRYING THEM AROUND FOR WAY TOO LONG! NEW JEN? YES, LETS PLAY. YES (WO)MAN!
IM SORE TODAY, A GOOD SORE. JUST ENOUGH WHERE I KNOW I WORKED OUT. I MISS BEING SORE (AS STRANGE AS IT SOUNDS). IM SUPER EXCITED TO SWIM AGAIN! I FEEL LIKE MY HEAD IS IN THE GAME THIS TIME. BRING IT ON.
WISH ME LUCK!
XOXO
J
P.S. GOING ON DAY 4 OF ALL MY REQUIRED WATER. STOKED. I GOT THIS! THANKS FOR EVERYONES SUPPORT, ENCOURAGEMENT, AND MOTIVATION! YOU GUYS ROCK!
YOU WOULD NOT BELIEVE HOW EXCITED, HAPPY, MOTIVATED, STOKED I WAS AFTER MY WORKOUT YESTERDAY. I RAN A MILE, DID A COUPLE WEIGHT MACHINES (GET MY QUADS STRONGER!) AND THEN HOPPED IN THE POOL. YOU DONT UNDERSTAND, THE POOL WAS MY MAIN MOTIVATION FOR JOINING A GYM. I WAS SO EXCITED I COULDNT WAIT TO JUMP IN! THE BEST PART WAS IT WASN'T CROWDED! I PICKED A LANE (ALL OF THEM WERE DOUBLED UP) SO I HAD TO GET MY NERVE TO ASK TO SHARE. A NICE MIDAGED WOMAN WHO WENT SLOW. PERFECTTTTT. IM A FAST SWIMMER. THE HARD PART IS I ALWAYS WANT TO GO FAST, BUT THEN I DONT LAST LONG. SO IT WAS GREAT TO SHARE A LANE AND JUST CRUISE; ESP FOR MY FIRST TIME BACK IN THE WATER (SWIM CAP AND ALL!) SINCE COLLEGE(!). LA FITNESS HAS A SALT WATER POOL, WHICH IS SUPER WEIRD AND SUPER COOL. THE TIP OF MY TONGUE FELT FUNNY AT THE END OF MY 20 MINS. I KNOW, I KNOW, I ONLY LASTED 20 MIN, BUT IM JUST TELLING MYSELF THAT THIS IS ALL A JOURNEY AND IM STARTING FROM THE BEGINNING AGAIN. BABY STEPS. I GOT THIS.
SPEAKING OF STARTING POINTS... WHEN I SIGNED UP I WAS OFFERED TO DO A BODY FAT CALCULATION... I WAS TERRIFIED. BUT I DID IT ANYWAYS. I HAD TO USE THEM AT CURVES AND I THINK MY BEST % WAS 17.2 (IN HIGH SCHOOL MIND YOU!) AND YESTERDAY I WAS 27.7%. I WAS DEVESTATED. AGAIN, IM PUTTING MY EGO ASIDE AND JUST MOVING FORWARD. THATS ALL YOU CAN DO SOMETIMES. IT CAN ONLY GET BETTER I GUESS! AFTER SEEING THAT PERCENTAGE AND TAKING THOSE PICTURES YESTERDAY IM PRETTY DAMN DETERMINED TO GET MY LIFE BACK AND MY BODY BACK.
NORMALLY ID DECLINE TO USE THE BODY FAT CALCULATOR AND A FREE FITNESS EVALUATION... THIS TIME I DIDN'T. ITS LIKE THE MOVIE 'YES MAN' I SHOULD TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THESE THINGS WHILE I CAN. MOST OF THE TIME I DONT DO THINGS BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO SEEM DUMB, WEAK, SILLY WHATEVER. I HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT IM PROBABLY AVERAGE, AND THEY SEE PEOPLE IN WORSE SHAPE THAN ME. ITS ALL WORKING TOWARDS THE GREATER GOAL. SO WHAT IF I CAN'T BENCH MY BODY WEIGHT? I NEED TO FIND SOME SELF CONFIDENCE... I KNOW ILL GET IT ALONG THE WAY. BUT EVEN IN GOOD SHAPE I FEEL LIKE I WOULD HAVE DECLINED IT. ITS DEEPER THAN JUST LOOKING SILLY, I REALLY FEEL LIKE I NEED TO GET OVER THESE SELF CONFIDENCE/ESTEEM ISSUES. IVE BEEN CARRYING THEM AROUND FOR WAY TOO LONG! NEW JEN? YES, LETS PLAY. YES (WO)MAN!
IM SORE TODAY, A GOOD SORE. JUST ENOUGH WHERE I KNOW I WORKED OUT. I MISS BEING SORE (AS STRANGE AS IT SOUNDS). IM SUPER EXCITED TO SWIM AGAIN! I FEEL LIKE MY HEAD IS IN THE GAME THIS TIME. BRING IT ON.
WISH ME LUCK!
XOXO
J
P.S. GOING ON DAY 4 OF ALL MY REQUIRED WATER. STOKED. I GOT THIS! THANKS FOR EVERYONES SUPPORT, ENCOURAGEMENT, AND MOTIVATION! YOU GUYS ROCK!
Thursday, August 25, 2011
[LISTEN TO NIKE]
I WORKED AT CURVES FOR WOMEN FOR ALMOST 4 YEARS. THE ONE I WORKED AT DURING HIGH SCHOOL AND SUMMERS AWAY FROM COLLEGE WAS ONE OF THE BEST JOBS IVE EVER HAD. WELL, LETS SAY FAVORITE JOB. MY BOSS WAS AMAZINGGGGG. SERIOUSLY, SHE WAS JUST ALWAYS SUPER HAPPY, MOTIVATING, KNEW HER BUSINESS, LOVED THE MEMBERS... YOU NAME IT, EVERYTHING YOU THINK SOMEONE WHO WOULD OWN A GYM SHOULD BE. ANYWAYS, I REMEMBER HER SAYING THIS TO A MEMBER AND ITS STUCK WITH ME EVER SINCE... "YOU HAVE TO MAKE FITNESS A PRIORITY." SHE WAS SOOOOO RIGHT! IF YOU DONT MAKE IT A PRIORITY, IT WILL ALWAYS BE ONE OF THOSE THINGS YOU CAN BE PUT OFF AND "DONE TOMORROW."
I FEEL LIKE I HAVE LET EXERCISE NOT BE A PRIORITY ANYMORE. EVER SINCE I HURT MY KNEE AND HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO DO MY 6-8 MILE RUNS ABOUT 3 TIMES A WEEK, IVE BEEN SUPER DEPRESSED AND UNWILLING TO TRY SOMETHING NEW. IVE BEEN EXCITED TO TRY SOMETHING NEW, BUT I HAVEN'T GONE OUT THERE AND DONE IT YET. I BELIEVE WE ARE ALL CREATURES OF HABIT. I LOVE RUNNING, SO I RUN. NOW THAT I CAN'T RUN, IM KINDA FREAKING OUT AND HESITANT TO BE HARDCORE IN A NEW SPORT.
IM CHANGING ALL OF THIS TODAY. I FINALLY FOUND A GYM. I DONT RECALL IF I TOLD YOU ABOUT THE WHOLE YMCA SITUATION... BUT HERES A RECAP... SIGNED UP BECAUSE CHILDCARE WAS "FREE" ONLY TO FIND OUT THAT IT WASNT FREE AT THE PARTICULAR YMCA I SIGNED UP AT, SO I CANCELLED. WAS SUPER DEPRESSED AFTER THAT. WELL A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO I JUST TOLD MYSELF TO FIND A GYM, EVEN IF I JUST WENT ON THE DAYS THAT RYAN HAD CAELUM. OF COURSE THE 2 24HR FITNESSES THAT I LOOKED INTO IN ENCINITAS (MY FUTURE HOME) DIDN'T HAVE POOLS. BOO. SO I LOOKED INTO LA FITNESS, AND THIS ONE HAD A POOL! YAY! ANDDDD THEY HAVE UNLIMITED CHILDCARE FOR ONLY AN EXTRA $10 A MONTH! SO STOKED! I AM SIGNING UP TODAY! I COULDN'T BE MORE EXCITED. ITS A LITTLE FAR FROM MY APT NOW, BUT IM NOT GOING TO LET THAT STOP ME NOW.
IVE LET FITNESS SLIDE. IVE BEEN EATING BAD. AND OBVIOUSLY THOSE ARE A BAD COMBO. A COUPLE OF MONTHS AGO I FINALLY HIT MY GOAL WEIGHT, ACTUALLY I PASSED IT BY 2 LBS. 123LBS. I HAVEN'T BEEN THAT SMALL SINCE FRESHMAN YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL! AND NOW I'M TERRIFIED TO LOOK AT THE SCALE, I'M PROBABLY UP TO MY BODY'S 'HAPPY WEIGHT' OF AROUND 130-132... TEN POUNDS! UNACCEPTABLE. I'M DISGUSTED. OBVIOUSLY MY HAPPY WEIGHT AND MY BODYS HAPPY WEIGHT IS NOT THE SAME. I JUST FEEL GOOD IN A BATHING SUIT AT AROUND 125. THAT'S MY GOAL (AGAIN).
I NEED TO FIND THAT DRIVE AND MOTIVATION I LOST SOMEWHERE. I NEED TO GET EXCITED ABOUT BUILDING MY QUAD MUSCLES TO GET MY KNEE BACK IN ORDER. I NEED TO GET STOKED ABOUT SWIMMING (WHICH I AM, BUT I THINK IM GOING TO HAVE A RUDE AWAKENING THAT I CANT DO AS MANY LAPS AS ID LIKE TO DO.... BABY STEPS JEN, BABY STEPS).
I HAVE A BIG EGO WHEN IT COMES TO FITNESS. I LOVEEEEE SAYING "I RAN 16 MILES TODAY" AND JUST LOOKING AT THE PERSONS JAW DROP. I CAN'T DO THAT ANYMORE AND IT KILLS ME. IM STOKED TO RUN 1 MILE WITHOUT PAIN. I NEED TO GET OVER MY BIG EGO AND REMEMBER TO BE EXCITED ABOUT THE LITTLE GOALS AND NOT GET DOWN ON MYSELF.
IM AWESOME AT JUSTIFYING JUST ABOUT ANYTHING. EXCUSES, EXCUSES, EXCUSES. I NEED TO STOP. BECOME SERIOUS. AND START MAKING FITNESS AND HEALTHY EATING A PRIORITY. FITNESS FIRST I SUPPOSE. IM USUALLY THE TYPE YOU HATE... THE ONES THAT CAN EAT ANYTHING, JUST BECAUSE THEY EXERCISE A LOT. I WANT TO BE THAT AGAIN. I LOVE MY FOOD. BUT THEN AGAIN I FIND WHEN I START WORKING OUT I DON'T WANT ALL THE BAD STUFF. STILL FUN TO SPLURGE SOMETIMES ;D
THANK YOU JEN (NOT ME, MY OTHER HALF) FOR BEING SUCH AN INSPIRATION! I USE CAELUM AS AN EXCUSE A LOT. JEN HAS TWO STEP KIDS... AND STILL WORKS OUT EVERYDAY. I USE BEING TIRED FROM WORK... JEN HAS HARD HOURS AND STILL WORKS OUT. AND NOT HAVING TIME? NO. I COULD WAKE UP EARLIER, I COULD WORKOUT AFTER CAE GOES TO BED. I CHOOSE NOT TO. HEALTHY LIVING/WORKING OUT IS A CHOICE. YOU CAN CHOOSE TO DO IT, OR YOU CAN CHOOSE NOT TO. OBVIOUSLY JEN IS DOING IT ALL RIGHT.
LOSING WEIGHT... NO. HAVING A HEALTHY LIFESTYLE IS HARD WORK. NO ONE EVER SAID IT WAS GOING TO BE EASY. FITNESS IS NOT FOR PANSIES. IT TAKES DEDICATION, A STRONG WILL, AND DETERMINATION TO DEFEAT TEMPATIONS AND MAKE YOURSELF A PRIORITY AGAIN. I FEEL LIKE MOST WOMEN (ESP MOMS) TAKE CARE OF EVERYONE AROUND THEM FIRST, AND PUT THEMSELVES LAST. I AM A "VICTIM" OF THIS STATE OF MIND. I HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT IF IM HAPPY THEN EVERYTHING AROUND ME SEEMS HAPPY TOO!
NO MORE! IM COMING FIRST THIS TIME. IF I TAKE A DIFFERENT ROUTE HOME FROM WORK, MY GYM IS ON THE WAY. I DONT HAVE AN EXCUSE THIS TIME. TAKE THAT, ... ME!
I DID TOOK SOME 'BEFORE' TYPE PICTURES. TALK ABOUT MOTIVATION. WITHOUT SUCKING IT IN AND ALL. I THINK ITLL BE THE PERFECT MOTIVATION TO KICK MY OWN BUTT. ANDDDD WHEN I GET BACK TO THE WEIGHT I WANT TO BE, ITLL BE NICE TO LOOK BACK AND SEE THE PROGRESS. MUCH LIKE JEN (MY OTHER HALF) DID WITH HER JOURNEY. SEEING IS BELIEVING. THANKS JEN FOR ALL THE MOTIVATION! PS MAYBE ILL BE BRAVE ENOUGH LIKE YOU TO POST BEFORE/AFTER PICTURES IN A MONTH OR TWO... ;D
AS NIKE SAYS: JUST DO IT.
I FEEL LIKE I HAVE LET EXERCISE NOT BE A PRIORITY ANYMORE. EVER SINCE I HURT MY KNEE AND HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO DO MY 6-8 MILE RUNS ABOUT 3 TIMES A WEEK, IVE BEEN SUPER DEPRESSED AND UNWILLING TO TRY SOMETHING NEW. IVE BEEN EXCITED TO TRY SOMETHING NEW, BUT I HAVEN'T GONE OUT THERE AND DONE IT YET. I BELIEVE WE ARE ALL CREATURES OF HABIT. I LOVE RUNNING, SO I RUN. NOW THAT I CAN'T RUN, IM KINDA FREAKING OUT AND HESITANT TO BE HARDCORE IN A NEW SPORT.
IM CHANGING ALL OF THIS TODAY. I FINALLY FOUND A GYM. I DONT RECALL IF I TOLD YOU ABOUT THE WHOLE YMCA SITUATION... BUT HERES A RECAP... SIGNED UP BECAUSE CHILDCARE WAS "FREE" ONLY TO FIND OUT THAT IT WASNT FREE AT THE PARTICULAR YMCA I SIGNED UP AT, SO I CANCELLED. WAS SUPER DEPRESSED AFTER THAT. WELL A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO I JUST TOLD MYSELF TO FIND A GYM, EVEN IF I JUST WENT ON THE DAYS THAT RYAN HAD CAELUM. OF COURSE THE 2 24HR FITNESSES THAT I LOOKED INTO IN ENCINITAS (MY FUTURE HOME) DIDN'T HAVE POOLS. BOO. SO I LOOKED INTO LA FITNESS, AND THIS ONE HAD A POOL! YAY! ANDDDD THEY HAVE UNLIMITED CHILDCARE FOR ONLY AN EXTRA $10 A MONTH! SO STOKED! I AM SIGNING UP TODAY! I COULDN'T BE MORE EXCITED. ITS A LITTLE FAR FROM MY APT NOW, BUT IM NOT GOING TO LET THAT STOP ME NOW.
IVE LET FITNESS SLIDE. IVE BEEN EATING BAD. AND OBVIOUSLY THOSE ARE A BAD COMBO. A COUPLE OF MONTHS AGO I FINALLY HIT MY GOAL WEIGHT, ACTUALLY I PASSED IT BY 2 LBS. 123LBS. I HAVEN'T BEEN THAT SMALL SINCE FRESHMAN YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL! AND NOW I'M TERRIFIED TO LOOK AT THE SCALE, I'M PROBABLY UP TO MY BODY'S 'HAPPY WEIGHT' OF AROUND 130-132... TEN POUNDS! UNACCEPTABLE. I'M DISGUSTED. OBVIOUSLY MY HAPPY WEIGHT AND MY BODYS HAPPY WEIGHT IS NOT THE SAME. I JUST FEEL GOOD IN A BATHING SUIT AT AROUND 125. THAT'S MY GOAL (AGAIN).
I NEED TO FIND THAT DRIVE AND MOTIVATION I LOST SOMEWHERE. I NEED TO GET EXCITED ABOUT BUILDING MY QUAD MUSCLES TO GET MY KNEE BACK IN ORDER. I NEED TO GET STOKED ABOUT SWIMMING (WHICH I AM, BUT I THINK IM GOING TO HAVE A RUDE AWAKENING THAT I CANT DO AS MANY LAPS AS ID LIKE TO DO.... BABY STEPS JEN, BABY STEPS).
I HAVE A BIG EGO WHEN IT COMES TO FITNESS. I LOVEEEEE SAYING "I RAN 16 MILES TODAY" AND JUST LOOKING AT THE PERSONS JAW DROP. I CAN'T DO THAT ANYMORE AND IT KILLS ME. IM STOKED TO RUN 1 MILE WITHOUT PAIN. I NEED TO GET OVER MY BIG EGO AND REMEMBER TO BE EXCITED ABOUT THE LITTLE GOALS AND NOT GET DOWN ON MYSELF.
IM AWESOME AT JUSTIFYING JUST ABOUT ANYTHING. EXCUSES, EXCUSES, EXCUSES. I NEED TO STOP. BECOME SERIOUS. AND START MAKING FITNESS AND HEALTHY EATING A PRIORITY. FITNESS FIRST I SUPPOSE. IM USUALLY THE TYPE YOU HATE... THE ONES THAT CAN EAT ANYTHING, JUST BECAUSE THEY EXERCISE A LOT. I WANT TO BE THAT AGAIN. I LOVE MY FOOD. BUT THEN AGAIN I FIND WHEN I START WORKING OUT I DON'T WANT ALL THE BAD STUFF. STILL FUN TO SPLURGE SOMETIMES ;D
THANK YOU JEN (NOT ME, MY OTHER HALF) FOR BEING SUCH AN INSPIRATION! I USE CAELUM AS AN EXCUSE A LOT. JEN HAS TWO STEP KIDS... AND STILL WORKS OUT EVERYDAY. I USE BEING TIRED FROM WORK... JEN HAS HARD HOURS AND STILL WORKS OUT. AND NOT HAVING TIME? NO. I COULD WAKE UP EARLIER, I COULD WORKOUT AFTER CAE GOES TO BED. I CHOOSE NOT TO. HEALTHY LIVING/WORKING OUT IS A CHOICE. YOU CAN CHOOSE TO DO IT, OR YOU CAN CHOOSE NOT TO. OBVIOUSLY JEN IS DOING IT ALL RIGHT.
LOSING WEIGHT... NO. HAVING A HEALTHY LIFESTYLE IS HARD WORK. NO ONE EVER SAID IT WAS GOING TO BE EASY. FITNESS IS NOT FOR PANSIES. IT TAKES DEDICATION, A STRONG WILL, AND DETERMINATION TO DEFEAT TEMPATIONS AND MAKE YOURSELF A PRIORITY AGAIN. I FEEL LIKE MOST WOMEN (ESP MOMS) TAKE CARE OF EVERYONE AROUND THEM FIRST, AND PUT THEMSELVES LAST. I AM A "VICTIM" OF THIS STATE OF MIND. I HAVE TO REMEMBER THAT IF IM HAPPY THEN EVERYTHING AROUND ME SEEMS HAPPY TOO!
NO MORE! IM COMING FIRST THIS TIME. IF I TAKE A DIFFERENT ROUTE HOME FROM WORK, MY GYM IS ON THE WAY. I DONT HAVE AN EXCUSE THIS TIME. TAKE THAT, ... ME!
I DID TOOK SOME 'BEFORE' TYPE PICTURES. TALK ABOUT MOTIVATION. WITHOUT SUCKING IT IN AND ALL. I THINK ITLL BE THE PERFECT MOTIVATION TO KICK MY OWN BUTT. ANDDDD WHEN I GET BACK TO THE WEIGHT I WANT TO BE, ITLL BE NICE TO LOOK BACK AND SEE THE PROGRESS. MUCH LIKE JEN (MY OTHER HALF) DID WITH HER JOURNEY. SEEING IS BELIEVING. THANKS JEN FOR ALL THE MOTIVATION! PS MAYBE ILL BE BRAVE ENOUGH LIKE YOU TO POST BEFORE/AFTER PICTURES IN A MONTH OR TWO... ;D
AS NIKE SAYS: JUST DO IT.
Sunday, August 21, 2011
[JUST WHAT I NEEDED]
LAST WEEK WAS VERY ROUGH... BETWEEN BEING STRESS OUT FOR MONEY, CAR PROBLEMS, AND JUST BEING EMOTIONAL, IT WAS NOT A GOOD WEEK. THREE BAD DAYS IN A ROW JUST THROWS YOU OUT OF WHACK.
YESTERDAY WAS AWESOME. JOSH AND I WOKE UP AT 8:15AM (WHICH IS A RECORDDDD IN MY HOUSE), WE MADE SOME DELICIOUS BREAKFAST SANDWICHES, AND STARTED OUR DAY NICE AND RELAXED. WE WENT DOWN TO THE DEL MAR RACE TRACK FOR THE 'GOURMET FOOD TRUCK' FESTIVAL. OH. MY. GOODNESS. IT WAS RIDICULOUS. 45 TRUCKS, AND A BAZILLION PEOPLE!
IT WAS UTTER CRAZINESS, AND OH SO AWESOME. HOWEVER, BECAUSE THERE WERE SO MANY PEOPLE WE ONLY HIT ABOUT 3 TRUCKS BECAUSE THE LINES WERE SO LONG, AND IT TOOK QUITE AWHILE TO GET YOUR FOOD. A LOT OF PEOPLE WERE ANGRY. LISTEN, YOU ARE GETTING FOOD... FROM A TRUCK. THIS ISN'T A HUGE HIGH VOLUME FAST FOOD RESTAURANT... THIS IS GOURMET FOOD... FROM A TRUCK IN WHICH 2-3 PEOPLE ARE COOKING. SO SHUT IT. THAT, AND HOW MANY TRUCKS CAN YOU REALLY HIT? YOUR STOMACH IS ONLY SO BIG...
ANYWAYS... WE GOT CAPTAIN CRUNCH CRAB CAKES WITH A SPICY LIME MAYO... AND OH MY FREAKING GOODNESS, SOOOOOO GOOD! HIGHLIGHT OF OUR FOOD TRUCK HEAVEN. BY FAR.
THEN WE GOT A BBQ BEEF BRISKET SANDWICH, WHICH WAS ALSO AMAZINGGG. YUM! AND OF COURSE, WE HAD TO HIT A CUPCAKE TRUCK. WE WENT TO ONE AND THERE WAS ONLY ONE RASPBERRY LEMONADE CUPCAKE LEFT... AND OF COURSE(!) THE LADY IN FRONT OF ME GOT IT. BASTARD. SO WE MOVED ON TO THE OTHER CUPCAKE TRUCK... WHO WAS ALMOST OUT OF CUPCAKES. SO WE ENDED UP GETTING TWO CHOCOLATE CUPCAKES; ONE WITH RASPBERRY FROSTING (JOSH) AND MINE WITH SALTED CARMEL FROSTING.... OH. MY. GOD. SO GOOD! THE FROSTING WAS AMAZING! I NEED TO START BAKING FROM SCRATCH AND MAKE AMAZING FROSTING LIKE THAT. IT WAS LIKE WHIPPED HEAVEN AND I COULD HAVE JUST ATE AN ENTIRE VAT OF SALTED CARMEL FROSTING. WOWWWY. MY MOUTH IS WATERING JUST THINKING ABOUT IT!
BECAUSE WE WERE AT THE RACE TRACK, WE DECIDED TO WATCH ONE RACE. IT WAS AWESOME. HOPEFULLY WE'LL MAKE IT BACK TO SEE A COUPLE OF RACES, WHERE WE'LL ACTUALLY HAVE SEATS ;D
ALSO I WAS ONLINE AND THEY SAID THAT FROM 7:30-9AM EVERY WEEKEND MORNING, THEY HAVE A BREAKFAST BUFFET AND YOU CAN WATCH THE HORSES WARM UP, SO IM HOPING WE CAN TAKE CAE... HE SURE DOES LOVE HIS HORSES! AND IT WOULDN'T BE SUPER CROWDED, WHICH WOULD BE NICE FOR A LIL INDEPENDENT GOOBER CHILD.
AFTER THE TRACK, JOSH TOOK ME DOWN TO HIS SCHOOL (UCSD) AND WE SAW THE LIL DR SUESS EXHIBIT THAT THEY HAVE. IT WAS AMAZING TO SEE ALL THE ORIGINAL ARTWORK! NOT TO MENTION THAT LIBRARY IS INSANE. LOVE IT!
THEN WE DROVE BACK UP TO LEUCADIA (MY FUTURE HOME!) AND HUNG OUT WITH MY FUTURE NEIGHBORS FOR A COUPLE OF GAMES OF CORNHOLE! SO FUN, BUT IM TERRIBLE! I NEED SOME PRACTICE... AND NEED TO BUILD UP MY ARMS! CAN'T GET THE DISTANCE I NEED. ANYWAYS... THE NEIGHBORS ARE HAVING THE 6TH ANNUAL CORNHOLE TOURNAMENT FOR LISA'S BIRTHDAY. ITS IN A MONTH OR SO. IVE HEARD STORIES ABOUT HOW CRAZY THIS EVENT IT. THEY GET A NOISE PERMIT FOR THE OCCASION, A BAND, EVERYONE DRESSES UP, PITCHES TENTS IN THE YARD AND SO MUCH OTHER CRAZINESS. IM SO EXCITED. THE THEME IS 70's WHITE TRASH... SO IF YOU CAN THINK OF ANY AMAZING COSTUMES... ;D
ALRIGHTY...
TODAY LEAVES ME WITH ERRANDS (GROCERIES, YUCK) AND AT SOME POINT NEED TO WORK OFF THAT CAPTAIN CRUNCH CRAB CAKE/BRISKET/CUPCAKE FOOD BABY IVE CREATED. HOPEFULLY A NICE RUN WILL FEEL NICE, (EVEN THOUGH MY KNEE IS A LITTLE SORE FROM ALL THAT WALKING YESTERDAY).
OH! I ALMOST FORGOT TO TELL YOU! SO A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO I DIDN'T HAVE A LOT OF TIME TO WORKOUT SO I GOT ON MY APT TREADMILL FOR A MIN BEFORE JOSH CAME OVER. I AMAZED MYSELF. I ONLY WANTED TO DO A MILE, BUT I WANTED TO RUN IT PRETTY QUICK SO I FEEL LIKE I ACTUALLY WORKED OUT. WHEN YOU ARE USE TO A 6-8 MILE RUN, 1 MILE JUST SEEMS PATHETIC... A WARMUP WILL YOU. BUT I RAN IT AT ABOUT 6.5-7 MPH! AND I DID ABOUT 1.25 MILES. SO PROUD! AND I WAS A PUDDLE BY THE TIME I WAS DONE. WOOF. IT FELT GREAT! AND MY KNEE EVEN BEHAVED.
LIFE IS GOOD.
J
ILL LEAVE YOU WITH A FUN PICTURE OF CAE... BECAUSE HE'S AWESOME.
YESTERDAY WAS AWESOME. JOSH AND I WOKE UP AT 8:15AM (WHICH IS A RECORDDDD IN MY HOUSE), WE MADE SOME DELICIOUS BREAKFAST SANDWICHES, AND STARTED OUR DAY NICE AND RELAXED. WE WENT DOWN TO THE DEL MAR RACE TRACK FOR THE 'GOURMET FOOD TRUCK' FESTIVAL. OH. MY. GOODNESS. IT WAS RIDICULOUS. 45 TRUCKS, AND A BAZILLION PEOPLE!
ANYWAYS... WE GOT CAPTAIN CRUNCH CRAB CAKES WITH A SPICY LIME MAYO... AND OH MY FREAKING GOODNESS, SOOOOOO GOOD! HIGHLIGHT OF OUR FOOD TRUCK HEAVEN. BY FAR.
THEN WE GOT A BBQ BEEF BRISKET SANDWICH, WHICH WAS ALSO AMAZINGGG. YUM! AND OF COURSE, WE HAD TO HIT A CUPCAKE TRUCK. WE WENT TO ONE AND THERE WAS ONLY ONE RASPBERRY LEMONADE CUPCAKE LEFT... AND OF COURSE(!) THE LADY IN FRONT OF ME GOT IT. BASTARD. SO WE MOVED ON TO THE OTHER CUPCAKE TRUCK... WHO WAS ALMOST OUT OF CUPCAKES. SO WE ENDED UP GETTING TWO CHOCOLATE CUPCAKES; ONE WITH RASPBERRY FROSTING (JOSH) AND MINE WITH SALTED CARMEL FROSTING.... OH. MY. GOD. SO GOOD! THE FROSTING WAS AMAZING! I NEED TO START BAKING FROM SCRATCH AND MAKE AMAZING FROSTING LIKE THAT. IT WAS LIKE WHIPPED HEAVEN AND I COULD HAVE JUST ATE AN ENTIRE VAT OF SALTED CARMEL FROSTING. WOWWWY. MY MOUTH IS WATERING JUST THINKING ABOUT IT! BECAUSE WE WERE AT THE RACE TRACK, WE DECIDED TO WATCH ONE RACE. IT WAS AWESOME. HOPEFULLY WE'LL MAKE IT BACK TO SEE A COUPLE OF RACES, WHERE WE'LL ACTUALLY HAVE SEATS ;D
AFTER THE TRACK, JOSH TOOK ME DOWN TO HIS SCHOOL (UCSD) AND WE SAW THE LIL DR SUESS EXHIBIT THAT THEY HAVE. IT WAS AMAZING TO SEE ALL THE ORIGINAL ARTWORK! NOT TO MENTION THAT LIBRARY IS INSANE. LOVE IT!
THEN WE DROVE BACK UP TO LEUCADIA (MY FUTURE HOME!) AND HUNG OUT WITH MY FUTURE NEIGHBORS FOR A COUPLE OF GAMES OF CORNHOLE! SO FUN, BUT IM TERRIBLE! I NEED SOME PRACTICE... AND NEED TO BUILD UP MY ARMS! CAN'T GET THE DISTANCE I NEED. ANYWAYS... THE NEIGHBORS ARE HAVING THE 6TH ANNUAL CORNHOLE TOURNAMENT FOR LISA'S BIRTHDAY. ITS IN A MONTH OR SO. IVE HEARD STORIES ABOUT HOW CRAZY THIS EVENT IT. THEY GET A NOISE PERMIT FOR THE OCCASION, A BAND, EVERYONE DRESSES UP, PITCHES TENTS IN THE YARD AND SO MUCH OTHER CRAZINESS. IM SO EXCITED. THE THEME IS 70's WHITE TRASH... SO IF YOU CAN THINK OF ANY AMAZING COSTUMES... ;D
ALRIGHTY...
TODAY LEAVES ME WITH ERRANDS (GROCERIES, YUCK) AND AT SOME POINT NEED TO WORK OFF THAT CAPTAIN CRUNCH CRAB CAKE/BRISKET/CUPCAKE FOOD BABY IVE CREATED. HOPEFULLY A NICE RUN WILL FEEL NICE, (EVEN THOUGH MY KNEE IS A LITTLE SORE FROM ALL THAT WALKING YESTERDAY).
OH! I ALMOST FORGOT TO TELL YOU! SO A COUPLE OF DAYS AGO I DIDN'T HAVE A LOT OF TIME TO WORKOUT SO I GOT ON MY APT TREADMILL FOR A MIN BEFORE JOSH CAME OVER. I AMAZED MYSELF. I ONLY WANTED TO DO A MILE, BUT I WANTED TO RUN IT PRETTY QUICK SO I FEEL LIKE I ACTUALLY WORKED OUT. WHEN YOU ARE USE TO A 6-8 MILE RUN, 1 MILE JUST SEEMS PATHETIC... A WARMUP WILL YOU. BUT I RAN IT AT ABOUT 6.5-7 MPH! AND I DID ABOUT 1.25 MILES. SO PROUD! AND I WAS A PUDDLE BY THE TIME I WAS DONE. WOOF. IT FELT GREAT! AND MY KNEE EVEN BEHAVED.
LIFE IS GOOD.
J
ILL LEAVE YOU WITH A FUN PICTURE OF CAE... BECAUSE HE'S AWESOME.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
[BUSY BEE]
[WEEKEND RECAP]
IVE BEEN BUSY. THIS PAST WEEKEND WAS PRETTY AWESOME. SATURDAY WAS A LITTLE ROUGH... WE WENT DOWN TO CARDIFF FOR SOME KIND OF STREET FAIR, BUT ALL ABOUT DOGS. FIGURED CAE WOULD LOVE TO SEE ALL THE DOGS. WHICH HE WOULD HAVE IF HE DIDN'T THROW A FIT BEFOREHAND. WE BROUGHT OUR LIL STROLLER, GOT PIZZA, AND ALL CAE WANTED TO DO WAS PUSH THE STROLLER. WHICH IS FINE... KINDA. PROBLEM IS THAT HE IS STILL LITTLE AND IS A STROLLER DRIVER IN TRAINING... WATCH YOUR ANKLES! AND OF COURSE HE GETS MAD IF YOU TRY TO HELP HIM STEER. SIDE NOTE: CAE IS REALLY STARTING TO GET ANGRY WHEN YOU SAY NO OR NOT LET HIM DO SOMETHING. SO WE ENDED UP TAKING THE STROLLER FROM HIM. HE FREAKED (OF COURSE) AND THREW A HUGE FIT. WE ENDED UP WALKING DOWN AN ALLEY WITH HIM CHASING US IN A PANIC TRYING TO GET THE STROLLER BACK. WE STAYED STRONG. THANK GOODNESS I HAVE JOSH THERE TO KEEP ME FROM CAVING. I KNOW IT IS BETTER IN THE LONG RUN NOT TO APPEASE HIM, BUT WHEN THAT CHILD IS SCREAMING UP A STORM LIKE HIS LIFE DEPENDED ON IT... ITS A LITTLE HARD TO WATCH. ALL YOU CAN THINK IS "HE'S GOTTA STOP SOMETIME." AFTER WHAT SEEMED LIKE HOURS (MAYBE A WHOLE 20-30 MIIN) HE STOPPED STRUGGLING AND HAD SOME WATER... WE WALKED THROUGH THE FAIR FOR A SPLIT SECOND ON OUR WAY BACK TO THE CAR... AY CARUMBA. SO STRESSFUL. A LITTLE EMBARRASSING. BUT YOU GOTTA DO WHAT YOU GOTTA DO.
SUNDAY WAS AMAZING. WE TOOK CAELUM ON HIS FIRST COASTER TRAIN RIDE. HE'S A LITTLE OBBESSED WITH TRAINS, WE LIVE RIGHT BY ONE AND EVERYTIME HE PERKS UP AND CANT HELP BUT SAY 'CHOO CHOOOOO' SO FOR HIM TO BE ONNNN THE TRAIN, OH MAN. CHRISTMAS CAME EARLY.
WE BROUGHT OUR BEACH CRUISERS ON BOARD AND HEADED DOWNTOWN TO SEE SOME BOATS, WALK AIMLESSLY, AND FIND SOME SHENANIGANS. CAE DID WELL, A LITTLE PISSY WHEN WE DIDN'T GO QUITE WHERE HE WANTED TO GO, BUT YOU KNOW HOW IT ALL GOES. ALL IN ALL IT WAS AN AMAZING DAY, SUN SHINING, CAE HAD FUN, WAS TOTALLY GOOD GETTING ON AND OFF THE BIKE/TRAIN, AND WE HAD A LOVELY FAMILY DAY ;D
[FITNESS]
ALRIGHTY ASIDE FROM THE BUSY WEEKEND. IVE BEEN RUNNING. KINDA. ILL PROBABLY GO ON MY 4TH RUN TONIGHT... HOWEVER I DO HAVE A FLAT STROLLER TIRE... SOOOO IT MIGHT END UP BEING A BIKE RIDE AND MAYBE A RUN TOMORROW. THEY HAVE BEEN GOING PRETTY WELL. I GOT UP TO ALMOST A MILE AND A HALF. GETTING EXCITED, BUT I CAN SEE HOW MUCH I AM GETTING OUT OF SHAPE. I USE TO DO 6 AND BE FINE, NOW I GET PRETTY TIRED PRETTY DARN FAST. ARG. A WORK IN PROGRESS FOR SURE...
[FOOD]
AS FAR AS FOOD. IVE BEEN TRYING TO BE GOOD, IM SURE IF I GOT MORE SERIOUS ID SEE THE RESULTS I WANT, BUT YOU KNOW HOW THAT IS. IVE BEEN PRETTY NUTS ABOUT SMOOTHIES LATELY. SO YUMMY! ESP AT WORK BECAUSE ITS SO HOT, AND THE FRUIT GIVES YOU GOOD ENERGY INSTEAD OF HAVING MORE COFFEE. MY TRICK: KEY LIME PIE YOGURT... GIVES IT A FUN ZING! :D
[MOOD]
I WAS A LITTLE DOWN LAST WEEK, I KNOW A COUPLE OF YOU GOT A TEXT MESSAGE OF 'I MISS YOUS.' I HAVE GREATTTT FRIENDS, HOWEVER, MOST OF THEM LIVE FAR AWAY. I NEED A WORKOUT BUDDY. SOMEONE SUPER CLOSE BY, WHO IS FREE IN THE AFTERNOONS, AND DOWN FOR ANYTHING. SOMEONE WHO IS HARDCORE AND WILL PUSH ME. IT SUCKS TRYING TO MOTIVATE YOURSELF, ESPECIALLY WHEN IVE BEEN SO BUMMED ABOUT NOT BEING ABLE TO BE MY NORMAL 'HARDCORE' SELF. I GUESS ITS ALL A TEST... GOT TO PUSH MYSELF... I GUESS IVE BEEN DOING THAT ALL ALONG. MAYBE ITS JUST MORE MOTIVATING WHEN SOMEONE ELSE BELIEVES IN YOU TOO? WHO KNOWS. ARG.
[IN OTHER NEWS]
... SORRY THIS PARTICULAR BLOG ENTRY IS GOING TO BE VERY SCRAMBLED; AS IS MY LIFE I SUPPOSE HAHA. I GOT TO HAVE A PLAYDATE WITH SARAH AND MY NIECE OLIVE. IT WAS AMAZING. I MISS THEM A LOT. IT WAS SO AWESOME TO WATCH OLIVE AND CAE TOGETHER. SO ALIKE YET SO DIFFERENT, THEY WERE TRULY A CRACK UP. IT WAS ALSO WONDERFUL TO TALK/VENT WITH/TO SARAH. SHE UNDERSTANDS RYAN, AND UNDERSTANDS WHERE I AM/WAS COMING FROM. ITS REFRESHING TO TALK TO SOMEONE ABOUT THINGS, AND ALSO HAVE HER BE SO SUPPORTIVE AND SO EXCITED FOR MY NEW LIFE. THEY ALSO JUST FOUND OUT THAT THEY ARE EXPECTING AGAIN, SO IT WAS FUN TO TALK ABOUT THAT AND HER WORRIES/EXCITEMENT ABOUT HAVING TWO KIDS. I JUST KNOW HOW EXHAUSTED I AM WITH JUST CAE... I REMEMBER HOW EXHAUSTED I WAS JUST BEING PREGNANT... I CAN'T IMAGINE HOW TIRED I WOULD BE HAVING BOTH OF THOSE TOGETHER! HOWEVER I DID TELL HER HOW EXCITED ILL BE NEXT TIME AROUND. RYAN WAS NEVER THAT INTUNED TO MY NEEDS OR THAT EXCITED IN GENERAL. IT WAS WEIRD, WHEN HE TALKED ABOUT IT HE'D BE STOKED, BUT NEVER DID I GET A FOOT/BACK RUB, AND HE WAS NEVER ALL UP ON MY BELLY WAITING FOR CAE TO MOVE OR KICK. I TOLD HER THAT I JUST KNOW JOSH WILL BE THE EXACT OPPOSITE. HE JUST GETS ME. I DONT NEED TO ASK TO HAVE MY SHOULDERS RUBBED IF IVE HAD A LONG DAY, HE JUST DOES IT. MAKES ME EXCITED FOR THE FUTURE I GUESS :DD
[ON THAT NOTE...]
I GET TO MOVE INTO JOSH'S APARTMENT IN EARLY NOVEMBER. SO STOKED. A LITTLE WEIRD ABOUT CERTAIN THINGS (AKA: EX GFS THAT HAVE LIVED THERE...) BUTTTTT I THINK AS SOON AS I MAKE IT MY OWN AND HAVE MY OWN STUFF, ILL START FEELING LIKE ITS MINE TOO. I LOVE HIS APARTMENT. THE COMPLEX IS SUPER SMALL, SO YOU DONT FEEL LIKE ITS AN APARTMENT. ITS CLOSER TO THE BEACH THAN MY APT (AND THATS SAYING SOMETHING, IF YOUVE BEEN TO MY APT). AND THE BEST PART IS THERE IS A HUGE YARD! CAN'T WAIT TO LET CAE RUN FREE! ESP BECAUSE HIS NEXT DOOR NEIGHBORS HAVE TWO KIDS (3 AND 2) SO CAE WILL HAVE LIL FRIENDS! AND ALL OF THEIR TOYS... MUA HA HA.
DOWN FALLS... ITS SET UP A LITTLE WEIRD; THE BEDROOMS ARE RIGHT OFF THE LIVING AREA (INSTEAD OF DOWN A HALL). ONLY 2 WASHER/DRYER FOR THE COMPLEX... AND NO DISHWASHER (WHICH IS FINE, I WENT 20 YEARS WITHOUT ONE, I CAN LIVE WITHOUT IT). AND NO PETS... WE WILL GET A DOG ONE DAY *SHAKES FIST. IM A LITTLE SAD TO LEAVE CARLSBAD... AND BY A LITTLE I MEAN A LOT. BUT I LIKE TO THINK THAT I EMBRACE CHANGE AND IT WILL BE NICE TO GET TO KNOW LEUCADIA AND ALL ITS QUIRKINESS.
[OTHER RANDOM NOTE...]
I CANCELLED DVR AND EXPANDED CABLE YESTERDAY.... CAE WAS AT RYANS AND IT WAS SO AWESOME TO JUST NOT WATCH TV. JOSH AND I TALKED FOR A COUPLE HOURS, AND IT WAS AMAZING. I GUESS YOU DONT REALIZE HOW MUCH YOU DO WATCH TV AND HOW MUCH IT PULLS YOU AWAY FROM QUALITY TIME. I GUESS EVERYONE KNOWS THIS, BUT ITS DIFFERENT WHEN YOU REALIZE IT AND THE ROLE IT PLAYS IN YOUR LIFE. I USUALLY HAVE TV AS BACKGROUND NOISE, OR SESAME STREET TO DISTRACT CAE WHILE I WORK... IM SURE WE ARE ALL A LITTLE GUILTY. BUT LAST NIGHT REALLY WAS AMAZING. ITS ONE OF THOSE TIMES WHERE YOU REALLY WANT TO JUST GET RID OF IT ALL TOGETHER AND NOT RAISE YOUR KIDS ON IT. IM A LITTLE EXCITED. ILL JUST HAVE TO WATCH MY EPISODES OF TEEN MOM AND BIGGEST LOSER ONLINE... HHAHA.
ON WEDNESDAY/FRIDAY MORNINGS I HAVE TO GET CAELUM AT RYANS HOUSE AT 4:45 AM... AND I LEAVE AT THE TIME MY SPRINKLERS ARE ON (OF COURSE, BECAUSE NO ONE SHOULD LEAVE THE HOUSE AT 4:30AM)... THIS MORNING I MADE IT OUT A MINUTE AHEAD OF SCHEDULE... I DIDN'T GET SPRAYED! SO STOKED, AND I THOUGHT IT WAS A SIGN THAT TODAY WAS GOING TO BE AWESOME. I GUESS IT STILL CAN BE, ITS ONLY 6AM... BUTTTT I GOT ON THE FREEWAY AND AFTER A COUPLE OF MILES MY CAR LOST POWER AND THE CHECK ENGINE LIGHT CAME ON. OF FREAKIN COURSE. HAHA. THANK GOODNESS JOSH AND TYLER ARE AWESOME AT CARS... I JUST HOPE ITS NOT ANYTHING TOO MAJOR. ITS DIED A COUPLE TIMES OVER THE LAST 2 MONTHS OR SO, BUT USUALLY ONLY IN PARKING LOTS AT REALLY SLOW SPEEDS, SO IT WAS WEIRD IT DID IT ON THE FREEWAY... WE SHALL SEE. CROSS YOUR FINGERS!
ALRIGHTY. I THINK THAT IS ENOUGH FOR TODAY....
THANKS FOR LISTENIN ;D
J
IVE BEEN BUSY. THIS PAST WEEKEND WAS PRETTY AWESOME. SATURDAY WAS A LITTLE ROUGH... WE WENT DOWN TO CARDIFF FOR SOME KIND OF STREET FAIR, BUT ALL ABOUT DOGS. FIGURED CAE WOULD LOVE TO SEE ALL THE DOGS. WHICH HE WOULD HAVE IF HE DIDN'T THROW A FIT BEFOREHAND. WE BROUGHT OUR LIL STROLLER, GOT PIZZA, AND ALL CAE WANTED TO DO WAS PUSH THE STROLLER. WHICH IS FINE... KINDA. PROBLEM IS THAT HE IS STILL LITTLE AND IS A STROLLER DRIVER IN TRAINING... WATCH YOUR ANKLES! AND OF COURSE HE GETS MAD IF YOU TRY TO HELP HIM STEER. SIDE NOTE: CAE IS REALLY STARTING TO GET ANGRY WHEN YOU SAY NO OR NOT LET HIM DO SOMETHING. SO WE ENDED UP TAKING THE STROLLER FROM HIM. HE FREAKED (OF COURSE) AND THREW A HUGE FIT. WE ENDED UP WALKING DOWN AN ALLEY WITH HIM CHASING US IN A PANIC TRYING TO GET THE STROLLER BACK. WE STAYED STRONG. THANK GOODNESS I HAVE JOSH THERE TO KEEP ME FROM CAVING. I KNOW IT IS BETTER IN THE LONG RUN NOT TO APPEASE HIM, BUT WHEN THAT CHILD IS SCREAMING UP A STORM LIKE HIS LIFE DEPENDED ON IT... ITS A LITTLE HARD TO WATCH. ALL YOU CAN THINK IS "HE'S GOTTA STOP SOMETIME." AFTER WHAT SEEMED LIKE HOURS (MAYBE A WHOLE 20-30 MIIN) HE STOPPED STRUGGLING AND HAD SOME WATER... WE WALKED THROUGH THE FAIR FOR A SPLIT SECOND ON OUR WAY BACK TO THE CAR... AY CARUMBA. SO STRESSFUL. A LITTLE EMBARRASSING. BUT YOU GOTTA DO WHAT YOU GOTTA DO.
SUNDAY WAS AMAZING. WE TOOK CAELUM ON HIS FIRST COASTER TRAIN RIDE. HE'S A LITTLE OBBESSED WITH TRAINS, WE LIVE RIGHT BY ONE AND EVERYTIME HE PERKS UP AND CANT HELP BUT SAY 'CHOO CHOOOOO' SO FOR HIM TO BE ONNNN THE TRAIN, OH MAN. CHRISTMAS CAME EARLY.
[FITNESS]
ALRIGHTY ASIDE FROM THE BUSY WEEKEND. IVE BEEN RUNNING. KINDA. ILL PROBABLY GO ON MY 4TH RUN TONIGHT... HOWEVER I DO HAVE A FLAT STROLLER TIRE... SOOOO IT MIGHT END UP BEING A BIKE RIDE AND MAYBE A RUN TOMORROW. THEY HAVE BEEN GOING PRETTY WELL. I GOT UP TO ALMOST A MILE AND A HALF. GETTING EXCITED, BUT I CAN SEE HOW MUCH I AM GETTING OUT OF SHAPE. I USE TO DO 6 AND BE FINE, NOW I GET PRETTY TIRED PRETTY DARN FAST. ARG. A WORK IN PROGRESS FOR SURE...
[FOOD]
AS FAR AS FOOD. IVE BEEN TRYING TO BE GOOD, IM SURE IF I GOT MORE SERIOUS ID SEE THE RESULTS I WANT, BUT YOU KNOW HOW THAT IS. IVE BEEN PRETTY NUTS ABOUT SMOOTHIES LATELY. SO YUMMY! ESP AT WORK BECAUSE ITS SO HOT, AND THE FRUIT GIVES YOU GOOD ENERGY INSTEAD OF HAVING MORE COFFEE. MY TRICK: KEY LIME PIE YOGURT... GIVES IT A FUN ZING! :D
[MOOD]
I WAS A LITTLE DOWN LAST WEEK, I KNOW A COUPLE OF YOU GOT A TEXT MESSAGE OF 'I MISS YOUS.' I HAVE GREATTTT FRIENDS, HOWEVER, MOST OF THEM LIVE FAR AWAY. I NEED A WORKOUT BUDDY. SOMEONE SUPER CLOSE BY, WHO IS FREE IN THE AFTERNOONS, AND DOWN FOR ANYTHING. SOMEONE WHO IS HARDCORE AND WILL PUSH ME. IT SUCKS TRYING TO MOTIVATE YOURSELF, ESPECIALLY WHEN IVE BEEN SO BUMMED ABOUT NOT BEING ABLE TO BE MY NORMAL 'HARDCORE' SELF. I GUESS ITS ALL A TEST... GOT TO PUSH MYSELF... I GUESS IVE BEEN DOING THAT ALL ALONG. MAYBE ITS JUST MORE MOTIVATING WHEN SOMEONE ELSE BELIEVES IN YOU TOO? WHO KNOWS. ARG.
[IN OTHER NEWS]
... SORRY THIS PARTICULAR BLOG ENTRY IS GOING TO BE VERY SCRAMBLED; AS IS MY LIFE I SUPPOSE HAHA. I GOT TO HAVE A PLAYDATE WITH SARAH AND MY NIECE OLIVE. IT WAS AMAZING. I MISS THEM A LOT. IT WAS SO AWESOME TO WATCH OLIVE AND CAE TOGETHER. SO ALIKE YET SO DIFFERENT, THEY WERE TRULY A CRACK UP. IT WAS ALSO WONDERFUL TO TALK/VENT WITH/TO SARAH. SHE UNDERSTANDS RYAN, AND UNDERSTANDS WHERE I AM/WAS COMING FROM. ITS REFRESHING TO TALK TO SOMEONE ABOUT THINGS, AND ALSO HAVE HER BE SO SUPPORTIVE AND SO EXCITED FOR MY NEW LIFE. THEY ALSO JUST FOUND OUT THAT THEY ARE EXPECTING AGAIN, SO IT WAS FUN TO TALK ABOUT THAT AND HER WORRIES/EXCITEMENT ABOUT HAVING TWO KIDS. I JUST KNOW HOW EXHAUSTED I AM WITH JUST CAE... I REMEMBER HOW EXHAUSTED I WAS JUST BEING PREGNANT... I CAN'T IMAGINE HOW TIRED I WOULD BE HAVING BOTH OF THOSE TOGETHER! HOWEVER I DID TELL HER HOW EXCITED ILL BE NEXT TIME AROUND. RYAN WAS NEVER THAT INTUNED TO MY NEEDS OR THAT EXCITED IN GENERAL. IT WAS WEIRD, WHEN HE TALKED ABOUT IT HE'D BE STOKED, BUT NEVER DID I GET A FOOT/BACK RUB, AND HE WAS NEVER ALL UP ON MY BELLY WAITING FOR CAE TO MOVE OR KICK. I TOLD HER THAT I JUST KNOW JOSH WILL BE THE EXACT OPPOSITE. HE JUST GETS ME. I DONT NEED TO ASK TO HAVE MY SHOULDERS RUBBED IF IVE HAD A LONG DAY, HE JUST DOES IT. MAKES ME EXCITED FOR THE FUTURE I GUESS :DD
[ON THAT NOTE...]
I GET TO MOVE INTO JOSH'S APARTMENT IN EARLY NOVEMBER. SO STOKED. A LITTLE WEIRD ABOUT CERTAIN THINGS (AKA: EX GFS THAT HAVE LIVED THERE...) BUTTTTT I THINK AS SOON AS I MAKE IT MY OWN AND HAVE MY OWN STUFF, ILL START FEELING LIKE ITS MINE TOO. I LOVE HIS APARTMENT. THE COMPLEX IS SUPER SMALL, SO YOU DONT FEEL LIKE ITS AN APARTMENT. ITS CLOSER TO THE BEACH THAN MY APT (AND THATS SAYING SOMETHING, IF YOUVE BEEN TO MY APT). AND THE BEST PART IS THERE IS A HUGE YARD! CAN'T WAIT TO LET CAE RUN FREE! ESP BECAUSE HIS NEXT DOOR NEIGHBORS HAVE TWO KIDS (3 AND 2) SO CAE WILL HAVE LIL FRIENDS! AND ALL OF THEIR TOYS... MUA HA HA.
DOWN FALLS... ITS SET UP A LITTLE WEIRD; THE BEDROOMS ARE RIGHT OFF THE LIVING AREA (INSTEAD OF DOWN A HALL). ONLY 2 WASHER/DRYER FOR THE COMPLEX... AND NO DISHWASHER (WHICH IS FINE, I WENT 20 YEARS WITHOUT ONE, I CAN LIVE WITHOUT IT). AND NO PETS... WE WILL GET A DOG ONE DAY *SHAKES FIST. IM A LITTLE SAD TO LEAVE CARLSBAD... AND BY A LITTLE I MEAN A LOT. BUT I LIKE TO THINK THAT I EMBRACE CHANGE AND IT WILL BE NICE TO GET TO KNOW LEUCADIA AND ALL ITS QUIRKINESS.
[OTHER RANDOM NOTE...]
I CANCELLED DVR AND EXPANDED CABLE YESTERDAY.... CAE WAS AT RYANS AND IT WAS SO AWESOME TO JUST NOT WATCH TV. JOSH AND I TALKED FOR A COUPLE HOURS, AND IT WAS AMAZING. I GUESS YOU DONT REALIZE HOW MUCH YOU DO WATCH TV AND HOW MUCH IT PULLS YOU AWAY FROM QUALITY TIME. I GUESS EVERYONE KNOWS THIS, BUT ITS DIFFERENT WHEN YOU REALIZE IT AND THE ROLE IT PLAYS IN YOUR LIFE. I USUALLY HAVE TV AS BACKGROUND NOISE, OR SESAME STREET TO DISTRACT CAE WHILE I WORK... IM SURE WE ARE ALL A LITTLE GUILTY. BUT LAST NIGHT REALLY WAS AMAZING. ITS ONE OF THOSE TIMES WHERE YOU REALLY WANT TO JUST GET RID OF IT ALL TOGETHER AND NOT RAISE YOUR KIDS ON IT. IM A LITTLE EXCITED. ILL JUST HAVE TO WATCH MY EPISODES OF TEEN MOM AND BIGGEST LOSER ONLINE... HHAHA.
ON WEDNESDAY/FRIDAY MORNINGS I HAVE TO GET CAELUM AT RYANS HOUSE AT 4:45 AM... AND I LEAVE AT THE TIME MY SPRINKLERS ARE ON (OF COURSE, BECAUSE NO ONE SHOULD LEAVE THE HOUSE AT 4:30AM)... THIS MORNING I MADE IT OUT A MINUTE AHEAD OF SCHEDULE... I DIDN'T GET SPRAYED! SO STOKED, AND I THOUGHT IT WAS A SIGN THAT TODAY WAS GOING TO BE AWESOME. I GUESS IT STILL CAN BE, ITS ONLY 6AM... BUTTTT I GOT ON THE FREEWAY AND AFTER A COUPLE OF MILES MY CAR LOST POWER AND THE CHECK ENGINE LIGHT CAME ON. OF FREAKIN COURSE. HAHA. THANK GOODNESS JOSH AND TYLER ARE AWESOME AT CARS... I JUST HOPE ITS NOT ANYTHING TOO MAJOR. ITS DIED A COUPLE TIMES OVER THE LAST 2 MONTHS OR SO, BUT USUALLY ONLY IN PARKING LOTS AT REALLY SLOW SPEEDS, SO IT WAS WEIRD IT DID IT ON THE FREEWAY... WE SHALL SEE. CROSS YOUR FINGERS!
ALRIGHTY. I THINK THAT IS ENOUGH FOR TODAY....
THANKS FOR LISTENIN ;D
J
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
[LETS POTTY]
[MOMMYHOOD]
MY LIL MAN IS GROWING UP. I FIGURED SINCE CAE IS PRETTY BRIGHT THAT I MIGHT WANT TO INTRODUCE A POTTY EARLY. (IM SURE EVERY PARENT FEELS THE SAME WAY ABOUT THEIR GENIUS CHILD... AND EVERY PARENT HATES DIAPERS). BUT BECAUSE HE IS STILL PRETTY YOUNG (ALMOST 20 MONTHS) WE DIDN'T WANT TO PUSH IT ON HIM AND FORCE HIM INTO IT. DONT WANT TO SCAR AND TRAUMATIZE THE LIL DUDE. SO WE BOUGHT ONE THIS WEEKEND AND JUST WANTED TO GET HIM USE TO SEEING IT AND EXCITED ABOUT IT. (ALMOST) EVERY TIME HE SAT DOWN ON IT WE'D GIVE HIM A GRAHAM CRACKER AND LOTS OF PRAISE. SO OVER THE WEEKEND WE'D ASK EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE FOR HIM TO SIT ON IT... AND LAST NIGHT WE HUNG OUT IN THERE FOR A LITTLE BIT, AND BY GOLY HE POOPED! IT WAS THE SMALLEST POOP IVE EVER SEEN, BUT I DIDN'T EVEN CARE! I SHOWED HIM, AND EVEN HE LOOKED SHOCKED, MOSTLY BECAUSE HE COULDN'T BELIEVE THAT THAT IS WHAT CAME OUT OF HIM HAHA. HOPEFULLY IS THIS NOT TOO 'TMI' FOR YOU FOLKS... SO OF COURSE, BEING MY FIRST CHILD, I WENT BONKERS WITH EXCITEMENT! AGAIN, WE ARENT PUSHING HIM TOO HARD, BUT I THINK IM JUST GOING TO TAKE HIM IN THERE EVERY TIME I HAVE TO PEE; WHICH IS A LOT BECAUSE I DO LOVE MY COFFEE AND WATER HAHA
[FITNESS]
JOSH WAS WONDERFUL AND WATCHED CAE YESTERDAY SO I COULD GO RUN ON THE BEACH. HE FIGURED IT WOULD HELP A LOT TO RUN ON THE SAND. MAKES TOTAL SENSE, I DIDN'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT BECAUSE I USUALLY HAVE THE STROLLER (TOO MUCH RESISTANCE IF YOU ASK ME; IM NOT THATTT HARDCORE). SO I WENT DOWN TO THE BEACH, SO CROWDED! THANK YOU RESORT TOWN IN THE MIDDLE OF SUMMER. AND THE TIDE WAS COMING IN SO THE SAND WASNT PACKED VERY HARD. WELL ACTUALLY NOT REALLY AT ALL. WHICH DEFINITELY KICKED MY BUTT. BUT I NEEDED A GOOD BUTT-KICKING. GOOD THING IT WAS ONLY A MILE! SO FAR IVE DONE THREE 1 MILE RUNS, AND SO FAR I HAVEN'T HAD PAIN DURING THE RUN, AND A LITTLE SORE AFTERWARDS. I THINK AS LONG AS I KEEP ICING IT, STRETCHING, AND DOING MY PATELLA EXERCISES, ILL BE HEADED IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION.
[FOOD]
GOING FROM EATING NOT-SO-GOOD TO TRYING TO BE GOOD IS AWFULLY HARD. WE ALL KNOW THIS. IVE BEEN TRYING. I THINK THIS IS THE AREA I NEED THE MOST ENCOURAGEMENT IN. I JUST FIND MYSELF CRAVING ALL THE BAD STUFF. LIKE A TEENAGER, ONCE I CAN HAVE SOMETHING OR CANT DO SOMETHING, I FREAK AND HAVE AN INSATIABLE URGE TO EAT EVERYTHING IN SIGHT. I JUST KEEP REMINDING MYSELF THAT FOOD IS FUEL. ITS JUSTTTT FOOD. SO IVE BEEN REALLY TRYING TO GET MY WATER IN AND KEEP BUSY. I FIND WHEN IM MOST HUNGRY, IM JUST BORED. ILL HAVE TO BREAK MYSELF OF THIS.
ALRIGHTY FOLKS... TIL NEXT TIME
BACK TO WORK ;D
J
MY LIL MAN IS GROWING UP. I FIGURED SINCE CAE IS PRETTY BRIGHT THAT I MIGHT WANT TO INTRODUCE A POTTY EARLY. (IM SURE EVERY PARENT FEELS THE SAME WAY ABOUT THEIR GENIUS CHILD... AND EVERY PARENT HATES DIAPERS). BUT BECAUSE HE IS STILL PRETTY YOUNG (ALMOST 20 MONTHS) WE DIDN'T WANT TO PUSH IT ON HIM AND FORCE HIM INTO IT. DONT WANT TO SCAR AND TRAUMATIZE THE LIL DUDE. SO WE BOUGHT ONE THIS WEEKEND AND JUST WANTED TO GET HIM USE TO SEEING IT AND EXCITED ABOUT IT. (ALMOST) EVERY TIME HE SAT DOWN ON IT WE'D GIVE HIM A GRAHAM CRACKER AND LOTS OF PRAISE. SO OVER THE WEEKEND WE'D ASK EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE FOR HIM TO SIT ON IT... AND LAST NIGHT WE HUNG OUT IN THERE FOR A LITTLE BIT, AND BY GOLY HE POOPED! IT WAS THE SMALLEST POOP IVE EVER SEEN, BUT I DIDN'T EVEN CARE! I SHOWED HIM, AND EVEN HE LOOKED SHOCKED, MOSTLY BECAUSE HE COULDN'T BELIEVE THAT THAT IS WHAT CAME OUT OF HIM HAHA. HOPEFULLY IS THIS NOT TOO 'TMI' FOR YOU FOLKS... SO OF COURSE, BEING MY FIRST CHILD, I WENT BONKERS WITH EXCITEMENT! AGAIN, WE ARENT PUSHING HIM TOO HARD, BUT I THINK IM JUST GOING TO TAKE HIM IN THERE EVERY TIME I HAVE TO PEE; WHICH IS A LOT BECAUSE I DO LOVE MY COFFEE AND WATER HAHA
[FITNESS]
JOSH WAS WONDERFUL AND WATCHED CAE YESTERDAY SO I COULD GO RUN ON THE BEACH. HE FIGURED IT WOULD HELP A LOT TO RUN ON THE SAND. MAKES TOTAL SENSE, I DIDN'T EVEN THINK ABOUT IT BECAUSE I USUALLY HAVE THE STROLLER (TOO MUCH RESISTANCE IF YOU ASK ME; IM NOT THATTT HARDCORE). SO I WENT DOWN TO THE BEACH, SO CROWDED! THANK YOU RESORT TOWN IN THE MIDDLE OF SUMMER. AND THE TIDE WAS COMING IN SO THE SAND WASNT PACKED VERY HARD. WELL ACTUALLY NOT REALLY AT ALL. WHICH DEFINITELY KICKED MY BUTT. BUT I NEEDED A GOOD BUTT-KICKING. GOOD THING IT WAS ONLY A MILE! SO FAR IVE DONE THREE 1 MILE RUNS, AND SO FAR I HAVEN'T HAD PAIN DURING THE RUN, AND A LITTLE SORE AFTERWARDS. I THINK AS LONG AS I KEEP ICING IT, STRETCHING, AND DOING MY PATELLA EXERCISES, ILL BE HEADED IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION.
[FOOD]
GOING FROM EATING NOT-SO-GOOD TO TRYING TO BE GOOD IS AWFULLY HARD. WE ALL KNOW THIS. IVE BEEN TRYING. I THINK THIS IS THE AREA I NEED THE MOST ENCOURAGEMENT IN. I JUST FIND MYSELF CRAVING ALL THE BAD STUFF. LIKE A TEENAGER, ONCE I CAN HAVE SOMETHING OR CANT DO SOMETHING, I FREAK AND HAVE AN INSATIABLE URGE TO EAT EVERYTHING IN SIGHT. I JUST KEEP REMINDING MYSELF THAT FOOD IS FUEL. ITS JUSTTTT FOOD. SO IVE BEEN REALLY TRYING TO GET MY WATER IN AND KEEP BUSY. I FIND WHEN IM MOST HUNGRY, IM JUST BORED. ILL HAVE TO BREAK MYSELF OF THIS.
ALRIGHTY FOLKS... TIL NEXT TIME
BACK TO WORK ;D
J
Sunday, August 7, 2011
[JOINING THE BAND WAGON...]
SO IVE JOINED THE BLOGGING BAND WAGON...
REALLY I JUST AM EXCITED TO HAVE AN OUTLET TO VENT AND/OR SHARE SOME FUN STORIES.
ALLLLLRIGHTTTY... HERE GOES NOTHING:
IVE RUN A FULL MARATHON AND TWO HALF MARATHONS. I REALLY REALLY WANT TO DO A HALF TRIATHLON... MY NORMAL RUNS ARE AROUND 6 MILES 3-4 TIMES A WEEK (WITH A STROLLER, MIND YOU. I CALL IT "RESISTANCE TRAINING").
RECENTLY I WAS ALMOST CONVINCED TO DO A FULL MARATHON ON A WHIM. SO I STARTED TRAINING, BUT I THINK I JUST DID TOO MUCH TOO FAST. SO MORE THINGS BESIDES MY BAD KNEES STARTED TO HURT, LIKE MY HIPS. LET ME TELL YOU, .... YOU KIND OF NEED EVERYTHING FROM THE WAIST DOWN TO WORK WITHOUT PAIN TO ENJOY YOUR RUN. BUT I STUCK IT OUT AND GOT UP TO A 16 MILE RUN! MORE RECENTLY IVE COME ACROSS A PROBLEM OR TWO...
PROBLEM #1: LIKE IVE PREVIOUSLY SAID, I HAVE BAD KNEES... RECENTLY MY "GOOD" KNEE TURNED EVIL. REALLY EVIL, LIKE MAD SCIENTIST EVIL. SOOOO I HAVE NOT RUN FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS. IM SURE EVERYONE HAS LOVED SOMETHING WITH ALL THEIR HEART. HAVE YOU HAD IT TAKEN AWAY? ITS PRETTY MUCH THE WORST THING EVER.I FOUND MYSELF GETTING INTO A RUT. LIKE BIG GRAND CANYON RUT. JUST SO DEPRESSED, I JUST ATE MORE AND COUCH CAMPED (WHICH IS NOT ME AT ALL). OF COURSE I THOUGHT ABOUT ALTERNATIVES. PROBLEM #2: I HATE GYMS, I ENJOY SWEATIN IT OUT IN THE SUNSHINE, FRESH AIR ETC. I ENJOY YOGA, BUT THE CLASSES IN MY TOWN WERE JUST TOO DARN EXPENSIVE. I LIKED THE IDEA OF GETTING INTO BIKING... BUT ROAD BIKES START AROUND $500 (A USED BEGINNERS BIKE). PROBLEM #3: I DONT HAVE AN EXTRA LARGE CHUNK OF CHANGE TO BUY A BIKE, IT WOULD TAKE ME QUITE AWHILE TO SAVE UP FOR IT AND I NEEDED SOME KIND OF EXERCISE OUTLET PRONTO.
BUT! (THERES ALWAYS A BUT) ONE DAY, I JUST COULDN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE, AND AFTER A LONG DAY I DECIDED I DIDN'T CARE HOW FAR I RAN, EVEN IF IT WAS 5 STEPS,... I JUST HAD TO! I COULDNT TAKE IT ANYMORE! SO I WENT ON A RUN. IT WAS AMAZINGGGG. I PROBABLY RAN WITH A HUGE EAR TO EAR SMILE ON MY FACE, IT WAS LIKE I GOT MY SOUL BACK! I DID A WHOLE MILE. WHICH IN MY MIND SET IS BARELY A WARMUP. I FOUND MYSELF RUNNING SLOWER THAN I NORMALLY DO JUST TO ENJOY MY MILE. I REALLY FOCUSED ON FORM AND BREATHING. MY KNEE DIDN'T HURT, I CAME HOME TO STRETCH AND ICE IT. ALL WAS WELL IN THE RUNNING WORLD! I WAS SO INCREDIBLY STOKED.
ALRIGHTY: TRYING TO BE PROACTIVE... IM STILL SAVING FOR A BIKE, HOPEFULLY BY NEXT PAYCHECK I CAN BE SERIOUS ABOUT BUYING ONE (!!!). IM TAKING RUNNING REALLY SLOW AND DONT WANT TO OVER DO IT... SO IM GOING TO SLOWING INCREASE MY MILEAGE AS LONG AS IT DOESNT HURT. STRETCHING, EXERCISES TO STRENGTHEN MY QUADS (TO HELP WITH MY PATELLA FEMORAL TRACKING ISSUES), AND OVERALL TRYING TO CONVINCE MYSELF TO NOT OVERDO IT BECAUSE ITS NOT WORTH THE SET BACK. BABY STEPS. BABY STEPS. BABY STEPS.
PROBLEM #4: BECAUSE I WENT FROM RUNNING 3/4 TIMES A WEEK TO DOING JUST ABOUT NOTHING, IVE GAINED A LITTLE BIT. IM TERRIFIED OF THE SCALE. THEN I WENT ON VACATION. TO THE SOUTH, FRIED FOOD ANYONE? NOW IM TRYING TO GET BACK ON TRACK, EATING BETTER (WHICH IS HARD WHEN YOU LIVE WITH 3 BOYS THAT CAN EAT ANYTHING THEY WANT), AND NOW THAT I AM "RUNNING" IM HOPING I CAN GET BACK INTO MY ROUTINE AND BE MYSELF AGAIN. EVERYDAY FOR ABOUT THE LAST WEEK IVE EITHER RAN OR WENT ON A BIKE RIDE ON MY BEACH CRUISER AROUND TOWN. ITS A GOOD START ;D
THANKS FOR LISTENING,
J
REALLY I JUST AM EXCITED TO HAVE AN OUTLET TO VENT AND/OR SHARE SOME FUN STORIES.
ALLLLLRIGHTTTY... HERE GOES NOTHING:
IVE RUN A FULL MARATHON AND TWO HALF MARATHONS. I REALLY REALLY WANT TO DO A HALF TRIATHLON... MY NORMAL RUNS ARE AROUND 6 MILES 3-4 TIMES A WEEK (WITH A STROLLER, MIND YOU. I CALL IT "RESISTANCE TRAINING").
RECENTLY I WAS ALMOST CONVINCED TO DO A FULL MARATHON ON A WHIM. SO I STARTED TRAINING, BUT I THINK I JUST DID TOO MUCH TOO FAST. SO MORE THINGS BESIDES MY BAD KNEES STARTED TO HURT, LIKE MY HIPS. LET ME TELL YOU, .... YOU KIND OF NEED EVERYTHING FROM THE WAIST DOWN TO WORK WITHOUT PAIN TO ENJOY YOUR RUN. BUT I STUCK IT OUT AND GOT UP TO A 16 MILE RUN! MORE RECENTLY IVE COME ACROSS A PROBLEM OR TWO...
PROBLEM #1: LIKE IVE PREVIOUSLY SAID, I HAVE BAD KNEES... RECENTLY MY "GOOD" KNEE TURNED EVIL. REALLY EVIL, LIKE MAD SCIENTIST EVIL. SOOOO I HAVE NOT RUN FOR A COUPLE OF WEEKS. IM SURE EVERYONE HAS LOVED SOMETHING WITH ALL THEIR HEART. HAVE YOU HAD IT TAKEN AWAY? ITS PRETTY MUCH THE WORST THING EVER.I FOUND MYSELF GETTING INTO A RUT. LIKE BIG GRAND CANYON RUT. JUST SO DEPRESSED, I JUST ATE MORE AND COUCH CAMPED (WHICH IS NOT ME AT ALL). OF COURSE I THOUGHT ABOUT ALTERNATIVES. PROBLEM #2: I HATE GYMS, I ENJOY SWEATIN IT OUT IN THE SUNSHINE, FRESH AIR ETC. I ENJOY YOGA, BUT THE CLASSES IN MY TOWN WERE JUST TOO DARN EXPENSIVE. I LIKED THE IDEA OF GETTING INTO BIKING... BUT ROAD BIKES START AROUND $500 (A USED BEGINNERS BIKE). PROBLEM #3: I DONT HAVE AN EXTRA LARGE CHUNK OF CHANGE TO BUY A BIKE, IT WOULD TAKE ME QUITE AWHILE TO SAVE UP FOR IT AND I NEEDED SOME KIND OF EXERCISE OUTLET PRONTO.
BUT! (THERES ALWAYS A BUT) ONE DAY, I JUST COULDN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE, AND AFTER A LONG DAY I DECIDED I DIDN'T CARE HOW FAR I RAN, EVEN IF IT WAS 5 STEPS,... I JUST HAD TO! I COULDNT TAKE IT ANYMORE! SO I WENT ON A RUN. IT WAS AMAZINGGGG. I PROBABLY RAN WITH A HUGE EAR TO EAR SMILE ON MY FACE, IT WAS LIKE I GOT MY SOUL BACK! I DID A WHOLE MILE. WHICH IN MY MIND SET IS BARELY A WARMUP. I FOUND MYSELF RUNNING SLOWER THAN I NORMALLY DO JUST TO ENJOY MY MILE. I REALLY FOCUSED ON FORM AND BREATHING. MY KNEE DIDN'T HURT, I CAME HOME TO STRETCH AND ICE IT. ALL WAS WELL IN THE RUNNING WORLD! I WAS SO INCREDIBLY STOKED.
ALRIGHTY: TRYING TO BE PROACTIVE... IM STILL SAVING FOR A BIKE, HOPEFULLY BY NEXT PAYCHECK I CAN BE SERIOUS ABOUT BUYING ONE (!!!). IM TAKING RUNNING REALLY SLOW AND DONT WANT TO OVER DO IT... SO IM GOING TO SLOWING INCREASE MY MILEAGE AS LONG AS IT DOESNT HURT. STRETCHING, EXERCISES TO STRENGTHEN MY QUADS (TO HELP WITH MY PATELLA FEMORAL TRACKING ISSUES), AND OVERALL TRYING TO CONVINCE MYSELF TO NOT OVERDO IT BECAUSE ITS NOT WORTH THE SET BACK. BABY STEPS. BABY STEPS. BABY STEPS.
PROBLEM #4: BECAUSE I WENT FROM RUNNING 3/4 TIMES A WEEK TO DOING JUST ABOUT NOTHING, IVE GAINED A LITTLE BIT. IM TERRIFIED OF THE SCALE. THEN I WENT ON VACATION. TO THE SOUTH, FRIED FOOD ANYONE? NOW IM TRYING TO GET BACK ON TRACK, EATING BETTER (WHICH IS HARD WHEN YOU LIVE WITH 3 BOYS THAT CAN EAT ANYTHING THEY WANT), AND NOW THAT I AM "RUNNING" IM HOPING I CAN GET BACK INTO MY ROUTINE AND BE MYSELF AGAIN. EVERYDAY FOR ABOUT THE LAST WEEK IVE EITHER RAN OR WENT ON A BIKE RIDE ON MY BEACH CRUISER AROUND TOWN. ITS A GOOD START ;D
THANKS FOR LISTENING,
J
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